The hand that feeds us

I got told to stop skateboarding one day and was looking at the man’s words, and why he was basically telling me to stop enjoying myself and get out of the place that I was skateboarding in. I was skateboarding in an underground parking garage that is owned by the city. The city has to pay money for the structures that it builds and to maintain the structures. The cities life blood is money. Since skateboarding does mark up and `wreck` structures and objects, the city will have to pay for the repairs done to the structures/objects. The man that kicked me out was a worker for the city, the city pays him money so that he can live the life that he lives. I was questioning whether he really gave a fuck about me skateboarding in there or not because no one actually cares about another...since he was a worker for the city, the city gives him life = the city supports him, so in order for him to support his life the way it is he has to continue working for the city, and the cities interest is not having to pay money that it does not need to pay. So in this moment this man support the city because it supports his life and him telling me to get out of the parking garage was in support of the city’s interests and thus he was then supporting his job through supporting the city. We all fear losing our jobs because that means we have lost our accepted living conditions and standards, thus this man was speaking out of fear of losing his job, because if he were not to support the city’s interests the city would have a chance to remove his life blood through removing his income.

In this example this man was in support of a system that is absolutely abusive and extremely destructive of life because this man knew no better. Since the city was supporting his life and this man became comfortable with his life and knew no better life attainable than the one he current has, he fought for the system that is destructive, abusive, and harmful to life. He saw fear of his life being taken away from him by the city if he were to let me skateboard in that place and mark up the structure that the city has paid for causing the city to have to pay more money to keep it aesthetically pleasing. He was afraid of biting the hand that feeds him even though that hand smacks him as well. In this instance we all end up accepting the system once we accept our lives the way they are. We do not look for anything better nor can we think of anything better than what we have when we accept our lives the way that they are, we do not question whether or not life can be better for the ones who suffer, we do not think about a better existence that the one that we have because we are provided life by the one that we have, and all we are asking for is life. Life can be so much more than what it is, it can prosper, because the current system is destroying the conditions of life and since we have become comfortable with the destruction of our lives we do not question it nor do we realize that there can be a much better way of living. We become subservient to the hand that feeds us, and in that we accept the destruction, abuse, murder, rape of life that currently exists. There can be a much better life than the current system that we have now = all life can prosper, we only must stand as a group in support of a better life for all beings on this planet. Accepting our lives as comfortable is the acceptance of the abuse of the system. Thus we are directly abusing life through accepting and allowing this system to exist. And the reason we come to accept this system of abuse is because it provides life for us, thus it is the hand that feeds us and we fear not being fed by money because we fear dying.

Do we really get fed by money? Is income really the life blood of ourselves? Is this system then only but an illusion? Absolutely. This system is a lie and we are feeding the lie through accepting the medium that feeds us = money and the monetary system. The way we get fed is through the purchasing of goods with the tool of money within/as the accepted world system. But we as humans actually get fed through eating, through drinking, thus money is only but a false value and food source of life. Food is the source of life and money is the medium that allows us to purchase the food, and since money is limited and conditioned on supporting the system through working our ability to live is conditional and limited, but it doesn’t have to be.

In an equal money system we are given the funds so that we are able to provide life for ourselves. The medium of money is still a tool but the accepted rules, laws, and regulations of the system will be changed vastly. They will be in the principles of what is best for all and equality and oneness. When funds are provided to us unconditionally because we are life, life can prosper instead of being limited to having a job, and then we will have the time to change the way that we live, have time to create a new world and assist in supporting what we have destroyed. We will have the time to figure out this reality much more effectively, we won’t have to compromise our enjoyment to find money, we won’t have to search for ways to provide ourselves life here on Earth, it will be supported unconditionally simply through a change in the accepted system. We as humanity as life must stand together as life in support of a better life for life. We must fight the hand that feeds us and realize that we have been feeding ourselves the entire time, and change to a better method of feeding ourselves. For more information visit http://equalmoney.org and http://desteni.org

Handing out Crack pipes

Handing out Crack pipes
 

In Vancouver, Social workers are handing out new crack pipes to crack cocaine users to try and curb the spread of Hepatitis C. Hepatitis is spread through the contact of saliva, cuts or basically the swapping of any bodily fluids. The Social workers have been giving out new mouth pieces for the crack pipes recently but they do not believe that it is solving the problem of Hepatitis among crack users, so they have set in place $60,000 to give out new crack pipes, mouthpieces, and condoms to users.

The issue with this is that there is no investigation being put into why they are using in the first place, the bigger picture is not looked at and completely avoided. What they are doing here is Accepting and Allowing the users to continue to use = they are not solving the problem = they are not looking at the bigger issue whatsoever. Through handing out new crack pipes to these people they are saying we 

Accept that crack exists in our reality and we accept that we can do nothing to change it.

One must look at the bigger to get to the core point of what is going on, the social workers here are only looking at surface facts. This is not support for crack cocaine addicts, what should be done is within the starting point of Ok we have crack in our reality…how do we help these people to stop using crack, and how do we stop crack entirely = this is not being looked at, thus crack is being accepted as a way of life through this action of handing them the tools to use with to try and stop the spread of Hepatitis.

In an Equal Money system drugs like this will not be allowed to exist as they obviously do not support the human whatsoever. In an EMS the want to escape from a perpetual system of compromise and self-degradation will not exist as the system will not be for compromise of self or of self-degradation. An EMS is in support of self in all ways, it is in support of all life, therefore the systematics within an EMS will result in curbing all drug use.

Investigate an EMS at http://equalmoney.org
http://www.vancouversun.com/health/Drug+users+receive+crack+pipes+part+pilot+project/5191625/story.html

Pets and an EMS and Suffering

Mar 20th 2011 7:14pm


I enjoy writing and moving myself within process. I simply want to enjoy myself writing right now, I simply am allowing myself to write whatever comes. I have been again playing video games, and focusing a bit more on that. I realize that I can pay attention to videos a bit easier when I am distracted. Meaning that I can hear the words easier, as I tend to backchat while I am listening and trying to focus on the words and not my interpretation of the words. I would like a goal right now, I am wanting to do something. I do not want to sit here thinking. I am looking at what I can do that would be any worth right now and I see writing myself as having some worth. So what would I like to write about. Lets just take on something simple. Owning pets and an Equal Money system.

Owning pets will not be an issue. I heard a story of a person throwing kittens out of his car window because he did not want to take responsibility for them, and that is a solution?! It is not a solution. As I have said destruction is not a solution, it only makes things worse. This person wanted to destroy the cats, destroy his responsibility to the cats, and destroy himself. He decided to throw them out of his car while driving to `get rid` of the problem, but this created suffering within the cats as they got hit by cars, and now police are looking for him. So really he did destroy life, and destroy himself in the process for not taking responsibility for this. Many people love cats, and there are many ways to place them for adoption for free, yet this person decided to kill them, most likely because of money as it surrounds every point within existence right now. The food, the dishes, the litter, etc, So in an EMS this will not need to happen. As ALL life will be supported on Earth. In this case he will be provided money to feed the cats and take care of them or they would be found a place to live, and not sentenced to death like this after a few months on Earth.

Mar 20th 2011 8:56

A question that I have been asking myself for a few days now is where does the suffering end? Looking at an apple which is life, and that can feel because I can feel it, when I cut it with a knife it must feel that, may not hear the pain, hear the scream from the apple, but everything can feel, this keyboard can feel me as I feel it. To think that humans are the only things that has the sense of touch is ridiculous. So I ask the question where does the suffering end for the apple. Does it end when it is picked off the tree. I say no because it can still rot. And from my understanding it is suffering the entire time at the grocery store, because once you take that bite into it will decay quicker than without a bite, so I say that it is still alive until it completely dies like a human body, If you cut a slice out of me I will still be alive for a while until I lose blood, and die and rot. So I was questioning if the suffering ended somewhere or if it could still feel as it is being digested…if I was eaten bit by bit then I would simply die before I hit the stomach, but if I was eaten whole then I would feel being digested and would suffer in the stomach. So I have answered the question with myself.

The Individual does Not Mattter

Mar 18th 2011 9:06pm


So when I fell I did not want to write and I did not want to vlog. I wrote but did not vlog. The expression that existed within me at that moment was `you better not show your face around here`. I did not want to show my face and I thought that I had disgraced process as a being or entity separate from myself. Thought that I had disgraced life as it is something separate from me. So I allowed myself to write myself out and this shows me that writing has now become a habit which is beneficial for me, but I did not vlog about it because I did not want to face myself within it. So now I vlogged about the point of depression and giving into this morality design within myself, and I realize that I am still here. There is really nothing to fear because I am still here. So all of this moral belief and ideas about myself being a good person or bad person or better person or less than person doesn’t exist nor actually affect me because I am still here and truly nothing has changed and nothing did change. I only became aware of the fact that I was moving myself within process out of the want to `make` it and become special and significant to myself…so that I can attain that belief of myself being special or significant…same point why I allowed psychosis to exist within me. So simply I have to do this process never for self any longer, but for others as self, study self as others, so that I may understand myself as others, and thus assist and support others. Participate within desteni to support an EMS which is best for the whole, which is best for all. It is not to focus solely on myself as an individual because on the whole I do not matter, no ONE matter on the whole, each one matters as the whole and if one does not participate in the whole then one does not matter. So within this right now not many people matter as most of us are still participating in self-interest only focusing on ourselves as an individual not as a part of the whole. So it does not matter whether or not I make it, does not matter if anyONE makes it, it matters if the whole is able to pull ourselves out of this hole we have dug ourselves into.

Education System

I am reading the book generation debt and there is a paradox within this book that will lead to the same shit just compounded. So the whole problem that is facing the education system is the fact that getting a higher education is costing quite a bit of money, and within this people are having to get loans to pay for college thus ending up with debt at the end of it having to pay off that debt for another 10 years after they have graduated. The extra problem in this is that the degree that they go to college for will not provide them a job within their field to sufficiently pay off their debt and support themselves within the system. So a few quotes within the book simply state that we must get parents to get larger loans to help their offspring to go to school and finish school…but that still leaves them with the same fucking problem! That just compounds the problem. The parents are then left with the debt which many cannot pay off…just because they are `parents` does not mean that they can simply pay for one to go to college. I suggest do not take out a loan unless you know that you will be able to pay it off, and do not collect debt, as debt is the death of many people in this world.


The advice from `experts` is irrational they are just speaking from a financial point of view, an economic point of view. Banks benefit and the colleges benefit but the people don’t. They still end up with debt..so the experts are only trying to support the banks and colleges further in trying to get more students to go to college by trying to convince the parents to take the debt just so that the kids can afford the entire way through college only to end up on the other end still with no opportunity for a job and then still having that debt and still in the same position

So here is a contrast between me and my sister. She went to college, I didn’t. K so she decided to go to college, she ended up taking out a $10,000 loan to put towards her 3 year education at the college. She went there for a year and decided that she did not want to continue. That loan now needs to be paid off. They only allow it to continue if a person continues their education. She is in a very tough position financially right now, using up every last cent of her income to pay off debt and loans. And there is not much that she can do, but to only continue this until she has got herself out of debt. As well my father co-signed for the $10,000 loan to help her and if she can’t pay it, which she will not be able to, he is going to have to pay it in full, as again they only allow the loan to continue to collect interest if someone is in school, and since she is out they are demanding that she pay it off. So this creates a large conflict between her and my parents because of the money factor, which is sad because this shows that relationships are all dependant on money.

I did not go to college. I was living at home jobless from 18-20, until I started to get kicked out. I ended up getting a job and saving up enough to rent out a place, and then I ended up getting another part-time job to help with money. I am now working 2 part-time jobs, and do not mind where I am at financially. I have no debt, I am actually able to save some money for me to go to school if needed, and I am making sure that I have enough money to go before I decide to go so I do not create unnecessary debt for myself. So I know that within 2 years I will be have at least $10,000 saved up to go to college or further my education where necessary, and again I will not mind doing this for 4 years if need be to make the money for me to go to college. I was able to set myself up financially and take responsibility for my income early on and get myself prepared to go deeper into the system. The only issue right now is job-security, I have one job secured but the other is definitely needed and am working on stabilizing that point.

So right now the education system is taking a turn for the worst. I suggest until governments start funding the education system or until an Equal Money system is put in place do not go to college unless you KNOW that you have the money. And unless you KNOW that there is job security within that field. I am able to support myself by working 2 part-time jobs. Do not take out debt that you know you will have a hard time paying back. It is useless to participate in the system where the individual is constantly fucked around only for profit of banks and colleges. As well An Equal Money System will erase all of this shit existent within/as this system so Support it if you can use common sense.

Devil's Advocate

During a conversation with Patti (my mother) An intersting point came into play and that was `playing devil's advocate`. Looking at the `saying`, why would someone want to advocate for the devil? Isn't the devil supposed to be bad, but everyone seems to enjoy it. So the devil is enjoyment...HA. Anyhow she said that she was playing devil's advocate, combating every point that I brought up, allowing me to combat every point that she combated. It went fucking no where. We ended up in the same position as before. So what I noticed is that playing devil's advocate one does not stand for self, but stand for spiting the other with the words that they spit. And she realized it as well, which is nice. she noticed that she was putting up a boundry so that it can be pushed passed, then she got angry that I was pushing her boundries.

Playing devil's advocate does not work in conversation, because one will always look towards any faults within the words that the other speaks, not allowing one to see the common sense being applied, Or any truths, only looking at the faults. Being the devils advocate goes no where. Listening as oneself is how to actually communicate.

The conversation was revolving around Equal  Money and the application of it. She was using the idea of a utopia to create a stand against point.

The conversatan whent nowhere, as I previously stated. The way I see it I was pushing her boundries as she was trying to close mine. I was standing for an Equal money system, supporting it, she was standing for the belief that it cannot happen. The conversation whent back and forth. It lasted maybe a half hour. And playing the devil's advocate, she got upset, upset that her boundries were being pushed. And I was pushing because I wanted to get the point through that an EMS is the best solution for this world, to stop the abuse. So she was standing her gorund, not opening up, and I was standing mine open to her words but not accepting them, because I would have to submit to submission of the system to accept the words that she was speaking. I am having trouble communicating. I do not know what point I am exactly thrying to get across. the point I want to get across the being the devil's advocate in conversatan is not useful. When one uses that tactic you are closed within only being combative and not listening to the words but constantly looking for faults.

So the point of conversation, I was talking to a person today trying to explain how I have been stuck in my mind, and the person got defenseful, because I was pushing. This is definately a point that I need to work on within conversation. I have been pushing information and knowledge onto the other person rather than applying that information and knowledge within sharing. I have been trying to slow myself down to share myself but It is tough as I have programmed myself to "prove that I am right". So within that conversation I noticed that I was pushing once it was done and what was interesting was that I felt rejected after. And I noticed that it was because I was pushing myself to be heard. I was listening to the words that she was typing, and applying ym point of view but pushing not, sharing. I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to slow myself down to the point where I am sharing myself constantly rather than pushing myself onto others. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to push myself onto others. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing ymself to feel rejected when people walk away from a conversation.

Within conversing I am not usually here participating and living each word Even now I am not here I am projecting a point and using words to get to that point...not directing myself here in each and every word that I am typing. Conversing is a point that I need to slow myself down within and be here in each moment directing myself and not reacting.

So playing the devil's advocate is a useful too to test ones understanding but to use that to communicate is useless.