Acceptance of our entire existence here on Earth

Moving into education again.
I have an opportunity to do correspondence and get my high school grades up so that I may be able to attend a college or university and I have been delaying/resisting moving on this point

I am resisting it because I do not see a purpose in school. I have a life that I enjoy, and within that I do not want or need anything more than what I have, yet I see that this life is not one that I would ultimate enjoy leading…as I will be stuck in this life.

I was looking at the resistances of taking an online course and it was a point of seeing it as valueless, meaning I have already mapped out my life and I see that now. I have accepted my death already, I have accepted my entire life already based on what I am and am not willing to move within. I looked at the resistances towards going to school and they are invalid. I would rather have the opportunity to expand than be stuck in the life that I am leading currently.

Having my grades improved will help me get into a college and then get a better paying job, and even if I decide to not go to college the opportunity will always be there, I will not be limited in what I can and cannot due, which is what I am doing within directing myself and my life currently, as I am limiting myself in expansion due to not improving my grades.

I have decided to move within taking the correspondence courses to improve my grades, and thus I have decided to move my life on rather than being stuck in my current reality.

Resisting moving within taking correspondence courses would only limit myself further in where I can place myself within/as the system. I think that we all do this in one form or another = we accept how our lives will be lived out early on and then hope for something new each year. We accept ourselves as how we are and dare not move past/through who we are accepting and allowing ourselves to live as and through that we are accepting and limiting ourselves in who we can become and live as. We accept a daily pattern and we become accustomed to living that out day after day and fear to move past it. I feared to move past my current accepted patterned lifestyle because then my reality becomes uncertain, as if I were to not give myself the opportunity to go to college I would always know what was ahead of me in life…I would know my daily pattern for the rest of my life, and we all come to this point in our lives.

I see this point as a diminishment of life = we don’t allow ourselves to ever expand when we fear moving out of the accepted patterned reality that we have become accustomed to and thus we live ourselves as a pattern daily and then we ourselves become a pattern and limit ourselves from expanding. Generation after generation we have done this and accepted this itself as a pattern in a whole of how life is. Find a job and SETTLE into a lifestyle in which we can know the outcomes due to a patterned lifestyle and within this always hope for something better but never take the responsibility to get it done, as within hope we take away our responsibility to direct ourselves in our lives.

This accepted way of living is a programmed reality = we know due to a pattern/program what the outcome is going to be, yet we allow hope to blind us from realizing that we ourselves must make a change to our reality to expand = to break out of the daily lived/accepted pattern.

I have chosen to take the courses so that I have the opportunity to expand in/as my reality and to not accept my current way of living for my entire existence here on Earth, giving myself an opportunity to expand.

Education System

I am reading the book generation debt and there is a paradox within this book that will lead to the same shit just compounded. So the whole problem that is facing the education system is the fact that getting a higher education is costing quite a bit of money, and within this people are having to get loans to pay for college thus ending up with debt at the end of it having to pay off that debt for another 10 years after they have graduated. The extra problem in this is that the degree that they go to college for will not provide them a job within their field to sufficiently pay off their debt and support themselves within the system. So a few quotes within the book simply state that we must get parents to get larger loans to help their offspring to go to school and finish school…but that still leaves them with the same fucking problem! That just compounds the problem. The parents are then left with the debt which many cannot pay off…just because they are `parents` does not mean that they can simply pay for one to go to college. I suggest do not take out a loan unless you know that you will be able to pay it off, and do not collect debt, as debt is the death of many people in this world.


The advice from `experts` is irrational they are just speaking from a financial point of view, an economic point of view. Banks benefit and the colleges benefit but the people don’t. They still end up with debt..so the experts are only trying to support the banks and colleges further in trying to get more students to go to college by trying to convince the parents to take the debt just so that the kids can afford the entire way through college only to end up on the other end still with no opportunity for a job and then still having that debt and still in the same position

So here is a contrast between me and my sister. She went to college, I didn’t. K so she decided to go to college, she ended up taking out a $10,000 loan to put towards her 3 year education at the college. She went there for a year and decided that she did not want to continue. That loan now needs to be paid off. They only allow it to continue if a person continues their education. She is in a very tough position financially right now, using up every last cent of her income to pay off debt and loans. And there is not much that she can do, but to only continue this until she has got herself out of debt. As well my father co-signed for the $10,000 loan to help her and if she can’t pay it, which she will not be able to, he is going to have to pay it in full, as again they only allow the loan to continue to collect interest if someone is in school, and since she is out they are demanding that she pay it off. So this creates a large conflict between her and my parents because of the money factor, which is sad because this shows that relationships are all dependant on money.

I did not go to college. I was living at home jobless from 18-20, until I started to get kicked out. I ended up getting a job and saving up enough to rent out a place, and then I ended up getting another part-time job to help with money. I am now working 2 part-time jobs, and do not mind where I am at financially. I have no debt, I am actually able to save some money for me to go to school if needed, and I am making sure that I have enough money to go before I decide to go so I do not create unnecessary debt for myself. So I know that within 2 years I will be have at least $10,000 saved up to go to college or further my education where necessary, and again I will not mind doing this for 4 years if need be to make the money for me to go to college. I was able to set myself up financially and take responsibility for my income early on and get myself prepared to go deeper into the system. The only issue right now is job-security, I have one job secured but the other is definitely needed and am working on stabilizing that point.

So right now the education system is taking a turn for the worst. I suggest until governments start funding the education system or until an Equal Money system is put in place do not go to college unless you KNOW that you have the money. And unless you KNOW that there is job security within that field. I am able to support myself by working 2 part-time jobs. Do not take out debt that you know you will have a hard time paying back. It is useless to participate in the system where the individual is constantly fucked around only for profit of banks and colleges. As well An Equal Money System will erase all of this shit existent within/as this system so Support it if you can use common sense.