The hand that feeds us

I got told to stop skateboarding one day and was looking at the man’s words, and why he was basically telling me to stop enjoying myself and get out of the place that I was skateboarding in. I was skateboarding in an underground parking garage that is owned by the city. The city has to pay money for the structures that it builds and to maintain the structures. The cities life blood is money. Since skateboarding does mark up and `wreck` structures and objects, the city will have to pay for the repairs done to the structures/objects. The man that kicked me out was a worker for the city, the city pays him money so that he can live the life that he lives. I was questioning whether he really gave a fuck about me skateboarding in there or not because no one actually cares about another...since he was a worker for the city, the city gives him life = the city supports him, so in order for him to support his life the way it is he has to continue working for the city, and the cities interest is not having to pay money that it does not need to pay. So in this moment this man support the city because it supports his life and him telling me to get out of the parking garage was in support of the city’s interests and thus he was then supporting his job through supporting the city. We all fear losing our jobs because that means we have lost our accepted living conditions and standards, thus this man was speaking out of fear of losing his job, because if he were not to support the city’s interests the city would have a chance to remove his life blood through removing his income.

In this example this man was in support of a system that is absolutely abusive and extremely destructive of life because this man knew no better. Since the city was supporting his life and this man became comfortable with his life and knew no better life attainable than the one he current has, he fought for the system that is destructive, abusive, and harmful to life. He saw fear of his life being taken away from him by the city if he were to let me skateboard in that place and mark up the structure that the city has paid for causing the city to have to pay more money to keep it aesthetically pleasing. He was afraid of biting the hand that feeds him even though that hand smacks him as well. In this instance we all end up accepting the system once we accept our lives the way they are. We do not look for anything better nor can we think of anything better than what we have when we accept our lives the way that they are, we do not question whether or not life can be better for the ones who suffer, we do not think about a better existence that the one that we have because we are provided life by the one that we have, and all we are asking for is life. Life can be so much more than what it is, it can prosper, because the current system is destroying the conditions of life and since we have become comfortable with the destruction of our lives we do not question it nor do we realize that there can be a much better way of living. We become subservient to the hand that feeds us, and in that we accept the destruction, abuse, murder, rape of life that currently exists. There can be a much better life than the current system that we have now = all life can prosper, we only must stand as a group in support of a better life for all beings on this planet. Accepting our lives as comfortable is the acceptance of the abuse of the system. Thus we are directly abusing life through accepting and allowing this system to exist. And the reason we come to accept this system of abuse is because it provides life for us, thus it is the hand that feeds us and we fear not being fed by money because we fear dying.

Do we really get fed by money? Is income really the life blood of ourselves? Is this system then only but an illusion? Absolutely. This system is a lie and we are feeding the lie through accepting the medium that feeds us = money and the monetary system. The way we get fed is through the purchasing of goods with the tool of money within/as the accepted world system. But we as humans actually get fed through eating, through drinking, thus money is only but a false value and food source of life. Food is the source of life and money is the medium that allows us to purchase the food, and since money is limited and conditioned on supporting the system through working our ability to live is conditional and limited, but it doesn’t have to be.

In an equal money system we are given the funds so that we are able to provide life for ourselves. The medium of money is still a tool but the accepted rules, laws, and regulations of the system will be changed vastly. They will be in the principles of what is best for all and equality and oneness. When funds are provided to us unconditionally because we are life, life can prosper instead of being limited to having a job, and then we will have the time to change the way that we live, have time to create a new world and assist in supporting what we have destroyed. We will have the time to figure out this reality much more effectively, we won’t have to compromise our enjoyment to find money, we won’t have to search for ways to provide ourselves life here on Earth, it will be supported unconditionally simply through a change in the accepted system. We as humanity as life must stand together as life in support of a better life for life. We must fight the hand that feeds us and realize that we have been feeding ourselves the entire time, and change to a better method of feeding ourselves. For more information visit http://equalmoney.org and http://desteni.org

Will People still have Mental Illnesses in an EMS?

Will people still have mental illnesses in an EMS?

This is an interesting point to look at as it shows how in fact money influences us so heavily that we create mental illnesses due to fear of survival and a lack of money etc. So Mental illnesses are believed to be only within ones’ mind, that is not only the case though as most mental illnesses are also relevant to how one physically lives and how one physically lives is determined by money. In an EMS there will be no need for survival, thus stress from having to constantly worry about having enough money becomes irrelevant, the fear of fighting for ones survival becomes irrelevant, the point within this is that mental `breakdowns` will occur rarely if at all due to a lack of having to fight for our lives, and life is unconditionally provided to us.

The entirety of the system of fighting for our survival and attempting to win creates a lot of mental diseases. I was schizophrenic for a period in my life, I created my own psychosis, and all of the `voices` `thoughts` `words` `ideas` all came from a point of attempting to uplift my ego so that I did not face who and what I was doing to myself as I was putting myself on the `bottom` of society, thus I created all of this mental shit so that I would be able to not feel as though I have lost in life. Throughout that period I was making myself believe I was god or something divine or something supernatural, etc so that I could `win` in life through making myself believe that I was better than all others, thus this fighting for our survival and winning in the game of capitalism does in fact create a lot of mental diseases, as we are in fact at a dis-ease with ourselves and our reality most of the time as living in this system is far from easy. Thus in an EMS living becomes easy as fighting and surviving becomes irrelevant as life is able the flourish without limitation

A lot of our mental diseases are because of how we are living today and how we are living is within the means of money, thus when the money system is changed how we live is changed and thus mental diseases change as well. There may stil be mental diseases but the ones who are there to assist in supporting the release of the mental disease will be there because they want to be instead of for money, the treatments will be the best for the person as profit is no longer an issue to deal with in relation to Big Pharma pushing their drugs though bonuses for giving out said drugs. Thus within an EMS there will be little to no mental diseases left as life will be with ease.

http://equalmoney.org

Blossoming of Life, And Humanity + a Little Rant

Mar 24th 7:10pm 2011


I had coffee and some food with my dad today and got to speaking about desteni and an EMS. Ok so first point here is what is cool is that I speak money and the system mostly with my father, and the emotions and feelings side of the system with my mother. Anyways while talking to me dad I had many reactions come up within me. As we were talking about me going to Houston, he questioned about how many people would be going there. I said right now 5-6 but more are invited. He asked how many people were at the farm….5? in a sarcastic condescending tone. In this moment I shut myself down immediately. I noticed that he was purposely pushing my buttons to get a reaction out of me and noticed that he does and has done this many times to which I have previously reacted. This time I shut myself down. No reaction no movement of energy no thoughts other than he is pushing my buttons to get a reaction out of me….so I still have buttons I must remove those lol, and in that moment I became silent did not express anything and disregarded that comment and started new. It was a simple expression of myself not participating in that. LOL I noticed that he is oh so dishonest about himself and does not want to admit It, wants to still exist in his state of idealogical bliss, so I am going to stop participating in speaking to him about desteni, as he has many reactions to it….lol one reaction is asking him to drive me to the airport to go to Houston. He asked why, I said a Desteni NA meeting, he said “Oh God”… LOL. I brought this point up with him today, as I said that he is the only one left in the family who is still against me in desteni, manipulating him in that moment to support me lol, and he said no I am not against you to which I laughed, and stated the above comment he had made. Stating that comment changed his expression immediately because he noticed his dishonest actions in that moment…by and by I am grateful that he is driving me to the airport as I was half expecting him to refuse because it is in relation with desteni. Shows that he is not holding desteni against me and is still reacting to the idea of what it is. Ok so that was a lot about him. So I experienced where I could be directed within that situation of speaking to him and allowing my buttons to be pushed and I did not want to go there and become angry and frustrated. LOLOLOLL one part I enjoy in that conversation is talking about how much money a day he needs to survive, in relation to jobs. He was going on about having a different job and the amount of money he needs to live, saying that if he had this one job then it would be 300 and if he had his current job then it would be different. I was laughing so hard at this point because I saw a ridiculousness within it because in his current situation he should need the same amount of money to live no matter what job he has. I saw him scratch he back of his neck which was ego and noticed that through laughing I was hurting his ego lol I said sorry for laughing and he said yeah…god. I see this point now as funny too. And this shows me that I do not want my ego hurt, so I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto my ego and beliefs of myself and fear being laughed at.

I understand that laughter comes from self, that in that moment I was laughing with myself, not at him, laughing at the ridiculousness that I saw in the situation, not at him.

Anyhow the awesome point here is that talking with him about money and equal money shows me my understanding and how fucked up money really is. I enjoy talking with him about money and equal money because my father construct which is about money is heavily within me so I can move on this point smoothly as we can relate to eachother easier, then talking about emotions and feelings. I am able to come to more of an understanding of money and the affects of money within this world through speaking on this point with my father. I am able to understand my understanding of an Equal money system through speaking about it with him which is very assisting.

We were talking about how money allows things to blossom, which I have seen as a very cool perspective on money. Meaning that if you place money into something say an electric car industry that industry will then blossom, become more relevant in `today’s world`. And the point here is that only companies have had money injected into them to blossom, so companies are the only thing that blossoms and companies only want more money = to keep themselves alive. We have created companies in the image and likeness of ourselves. I mean there is no money being injected into anything to blossom the living conditions. I mean war is the most funded aspect within the political agenda so this is showing what is going to blossom and continue to blossom. Lol I do not want to use the word blossom because war is not a flower. Hospitals are not funded properly so the support of life that they are there fore will degrade. So I mean what can we fund that will blossom life? The living conditions of life? For 1 and obvious reasons an Equal Money System, as the entire system will thus then support life. So I mean what exists in this world currently that is supporting life? What exists within this world currently that is not out of the want for more money? FUCK even humans are subject to this, so then the question occurs are we actually life, or just another fucking company, that runs on regulations and rules, and is subject to survival through money/energy? Are we life or just another cog in the machine of the entirety of the system? Well in this math we are machines, we are just another company as ourselves alone, only looking/caring out for our own survival LOLOOL we compete with eachother believing this to be beneficial for ourselves through making ourselves better LOLOL just like companies do, they create many sister companies under one parent company to compete with eachother to `better eachother` to make more money but in the end they all die, so why compete. It is senseless and it actually does not support progress. I mean you cannot compete, if you compete with another just because they exist, it does not matter whether you perceive yourself to be winning or losing, you are simply deceiving yourself from the fact that they are your sister, your brother, Made from the exact same genetic code = EQUAL. So yeah I mean even ourselves are not allowing ourselves to blossom into life, as we are only just another company looking for more money to `further/better` or survival not realizing that the ones who we are competing with are our equals.

Simply Support an Equal Money System, to show who you are as life and thus blossom, support this system and stay a machine, a company, and eventually wither away until you are left an empty building/body.

Stress and Work

Stress within work


Watching sunettes video about stress a thought came up of “How can I do this during work”. This thought came up because Both of my jobs are time constrained and I must really rush myself in each moment to get things done…well that is how I have approached the problem. That is how I have become a solution. Each time I have worked before I created stress is that I would take it easy on myself and try and enjoy the time I have within breathing and moving and thinking within my comfort zone unfortunately. I would take my time and relax and enjoy but then I got written up for poor performance and I started to fear for my job fear for money so I started to rush myself to try and get the things that they ask me to get done. Both jobs this has happened where Time is being pushed and I am fearing for my survival more and more which is bullshit because death is much more pleasant then stress. So what has happened is that I have to rush now to try and get as much done as possible within the one job so that we make the `time` allotted to us. But what is extremely fucked up is that the store opens now a half hour earlier and it is Christmas time so we are getting more stock…we open boxes of clothes in the morning that are transported to the store, and are expected to get them all open and sorted in the time allotted, but they have given us more product to open and less time to open is and are still expecting us to get t done properly. And right now my survival is dependant on these jobs so I am obviously living this bullshit out that I have created. I have been wanting to experience what people have to go through so that I can and ezperience what they do. So I have now experienced the fear of surviving and what we do to push ourselves to force ourselves to make money to survive, Which is fucking crazy. So there is a lot of stress and I was thinking about how to apply myself within this and that is I must not care for 1 and just breathe and move for 2. I cannot judge myself based on how much I get done…I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself based on the belief of how well I work. I must realize and I will start to spply realizing myself within breath while working and write down any and all reactions to my job…believing that I can’t do it etc. Right now Even before I have tried I believe that I cannot do it because eof the personality that I move into and as as I participate in work. The grocery store job I must be absolutely effective in Directing myself in every moment to become effective in that job…that is how I can overcome and remove stress in that job. That will be interesting and I think I cannot have music with me to achieve that. Because my mind goes straight to the words within the song and I focus on that and not where I must direct myself in each moment. So that is how to do it I will apply myself tomorrow and remember to apply breath I each moment. I will start applying it within the walk to work and not stress about anything simply be here in the moment and direct myself accordingly. Ok so one thing that I have noticed that I have blamed it on is I inhale all this dirt and dust from the boxes and after a while my stomach hurts, but that could definitely be from the thoughts and the feelings f stress I put on myself because I have asked another and he said that he does not feel this. So it is me not the boxes. Anyhow after this feeling comes on I do not move myself as fast…I completely and utterly want to let go, want to stop working then and there. I feel physically ill and I do not want to continue with working with the feeling. So I will see what I am thinking whenI am working and write it down.

Most Miserable City in Canada

Least happy city in Canada


Toronto Was voted the most miserable, not voted but concluded upon, city in the country. Lets look at Toronto. It has roughly 1 million people living in the city. There are a lot of businesses, It is not self sustainable. Toronto Vs the Country. The country is open, the country, you can see a lot of nature. In a city one is bombarded with lights and advertisements, always looking for something to buy, being programmed to search to buy something. Being programmed to search outside of self with the use of money for happiness. No one is there to help, everyone looks out for themselves. Where is the enjoyment in that. When no one is around to help out one becomes depressed. Everyone is searching for there next paycheck, Everyone is in a rush to get the next paycheck, so no one is looking out for the neighbour. So when people help eachother out it is much nicer to live, because you are living with someone, you are not alone, which when one looks at it there are people all around us yet we believe ourselves to be absolutely alone, that everyone else is a stranger, they are stranger than you, do not speak fear them for their strangeness. Everyone is walking around for themselves. Anyhow Happiness is immeasurable, people are happy and sad, and when one has to constantly fight for survival because no one is helping then one will become frustrated, because we all like to be helped out in this world. I tested this out, In work I work alone and with people, I enjoy working with people because the more people working on a task the faster it goes and the more fun one has because you can help eachother out. When working alone it becomes much more stressful because one has to work out all problems alone and sometimes we do not give ourselves the insight we need because we are blinded by the stress and anger and frustration. That is why Toronto is the most miserable city in Canada, In an Equal money system everyone will be working for everyone=unlimited fun and joy and self-Expression.