The hand that feeds us

I got told to stop skateboarding one day and was looking at the man’s words, and why he was basically telling me to stop enjoying myself and get out of the place that I was skateboarding in. I was skateboarding in an underground parking garage that is owned by the city. The city has to pay money for the structures that it builds and to maintain the structures. The cities life blood is money. Since skateboarding does mark up and `wreck` structures and objects, the city will have to pay for the repairs done to the structures/objects. The man that kicked me out was a worker for the city, the city pays him money so that he can live the life that he lives. I was questioning whether he really gave a fuck about me skateboarding in there or not because no one actually cares about another...since he was a worker for the city, the city gives him life = the city supports him, so in order for him to support his life the way it is he has to continue working for the city, and the cities interest is not having to pay money that it does not need to pay. So in this moment this man support the city because it supports his life and him telling me to get out of the parking garage was in support of the city’s interests and thus he was then supporting his job through supporting the city. We all fear losing our jobs because that means we have lost our accepted living conditions and standards, thus this man was speaking out of fear of losing his job, because if he were not to support the city’s interests the city would have a chance to remove his life blood through removing his income.

In this example this man was in support of a system that is absolutely abusive and extremely destructive of life because this man knew no better. Since the city was supporting his life and this man became comfortable with his life and knew no better life attainable than the one he current has, he fought for the system that is destructive, abusive, and harmful to life. He saw fear of his life being taken away from him by the city if he were to let me skateboard in that place and mark up the structure that the city has paid for causing the city to have to pay more money to keep it aesthetically pleasing. He was afraid of biting the hand that feeds him even though that hand smacks him as well. In this instance we all end up accepting the system once we accept our lives the way they are. We do not look for anything better nor can we think of anything better than what we have when we accept our lives the way that they are, we do not question whether or not life can be better for the ones who suffer, we do not think about a better existence that the one that we have because we are provided life by the one that we have, and all we are asking for is life. Life can be so much more than what it is, it can prosper, because the current system is destroying the conditions of life and since we have become comfortable with the destruction of our lives we do not question it nor do we realize that there can be a much better way of living. We become subservient to the hand that feeds us, and in that we accept the destruction, abuse, murder, rape of life that currently exists. There can be a much better life than the current system that we have now = all life can prosper, we only must stand as a group in support of a better life for all beings on this planet. Accepting our lives as comfortable is the acceptance of the abuse of the system. Thus we are directly abusing life through accepting and allowing this system to exist. And the reason we come to accept this system of abuse is because it provides life for us, thus it is the hand that feeds us and we fear not being fed by money because we fear dying.

Do we really get fed by money? Is income really the life blood of ourselves? Is this system then only but an illusion? Absolutely. This system is a lie and we are feeding the lie through accepting the medium that feeds us = money and the monetary system. The way we get fed is through the purchasing of goods with the tool of money within/as the accepted world system. But we as humans actually get fed through eating, through drinking, thus money is only but a false value and food source of life. Food is the source of life and money is the medium that allows us to purchase the food, and since money is limited and conditioned on supporting the system through working our ability to live is conditional and limited, but it doesn’t have to be.

In an equal money system we are given the funds so that we are able to provide life for ourselves. The medium of money is still a tool but the accepted rules, laws, and regulations of the system will be changed vastly. They will be in the principles of what is best for all and equality and oneness. When funds are provided to us unconditionally because we are life, life can prosper instead of being limited to having a job, and then we will have the time to change the way that we live, have time to create a new world and assist in supporting what we have destroyed. We will have the time to figure out this reality much more effectively, we won’t have to compromise our enjoyment to find money, we won’t have to search for ways to provide ourselves life here on Earth, it will be supported unconditionally simply through a change in the accepted system. We as humanity as life must stand together as life in support of a better life for life. We must fight the hand that feeds us and realize that we have been feeding ourselves the entire time, and change to a better method of feeding ourselves. For more information visit http://equalmoney.org and http://desteni.org

Blossoming of Life, And Humanity + a Little Rant

Mar 24th 7:10pm 2011


I had coffee and some food with my dad today and got to speaking about desteni and an EMS. Ok so first point here is what is cool is that I speak money and the system mostly with my father, and the emotions and feelings side of the system with my mother. Anyways while talking to me dad I had many reactions come up within me. As we were talking about me going to Houston, he questioned about how many people would be going there. I said right now 5-6 but more are invited. He asked how many people were at the farm….5? in a sarcastic condescending tone. In this moment I shut myself down immediately. I noticed that he was purposely pushing my buttons to get a reaction out of me and noticed that he does and has done this many times to which I have previously reacted. This time I shut myself down. No reaction no movement of energy no thoughts other than he is pushing my buttons to get a reaction out of me….so I still have buttons I must remove those lol, and in that moment I became silent did not express anything and disregarded that comment and started new. It was a simple expression of myself not participating in that. LOL I noticed that he is oh so dishonest about himself and does not want to admit It, wants to still exist in his state of idealogical bliss, so I am going to stop participating in speaking to him about desteni, as he has many reactions to it….lol one reaction is asking him to drive me to the airport to go to Houston. He asked why, I said a Desteni NA meeting, he said “Oh God”… LOL. I brought this point up with him today, as I said that he is the only one left in the family who is still against me in desteni, manipulating him in that moment to support me lol, and he said no I am not against you to which I laughed, and stated the above comment he had made. Stating that comment changed his expression immediately because he noticed his dishonest actions in that moment…by and by I am grateful that he is driving me to the airport as I was half expecting him to refuse because it is in relation with desteni. Shows that he is not holding desteni against me and is still reacting to the idea of what it is. Ok so that was a lot about him. So I experienced where I could be directed within that situation of speaking to him and allowing my buttons to be pushed and I did not want to go there and become angry and frustrated. LOLOLOLL one part I enjoy in that conversation is talking about how much money a day he needs to survive, in relation to jobs. He was going on about having a different job and the amount of money he needs to live, saying that if he had this one job then it would be 300 and if he had his current job then it would be different. I was laughing so hard at this point because I saw a ridiculousness within it because in his current situation he should need the same amount of money to live no matter what job he has. I saw him scratch he back of his neck which was ego and noticed that through laughing I was hurting his ego lol I said sorry for laughing and he said yeah…god. I see this point now as funny too. And this shows me that I do not want my ego hurt, so I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto my ego and beliefs of myself and fear being laughed at.

I understand that laughter comes from self, that in that moment I was laughing with myself, not at him, laughing at the ridiculousness that I saw in the situation, not at him.

Anyhow the awesome point here is that talking with him about money and equal money shows me my understanding and how fucked up money really is. I enjoy talking with him about money and equal money because my father construct which is about money is heavily within me so I can move on this point smoothly as we can relate to eachother easier, then talking about emotions and feelings. I am able to come to more of an understanding of money and the affects of money within this world through speaking on this point with my father. I am able to understand my understanding of an Equal money system through speaking about it with him which is very assisting.

We were talking about how money allows things to blossom, which I have seen as a very cool perspective on money. Meaning that if you place money into something say an electric car industry that industry will then blossom, become more relevant in `today’s world`. And the point here is that only companies have had money injected into them to blossom, so companies are the only thing that blossoms and companies only want more money = to keep themselves alive. We have created companies in the image and likeness of ourselves. I mean there is no money being injected into anything to blossom the living conditions. I mean war is the most funded aspect within the political agenda so this is showing what is going to blossom and continue to blossom. Lol I do not want to use the word blossom because war is not a flower. Hospitals are not funded properly so the support of life that they are there fore will degrade. So I mean what can we fund that will blossom life? The living conditions of life? For 1 and obvious reasons an Equal Money System, as the entire system will thus then support life. So I mean what exists in this world currently that is supporting life? What exists within this world currently that is not out of the want for more money? FUCK even humans are subject to this, so then the question occurs are we actually life, or just another fucking company, that runs on regulations and rules, and is subject to survival through money/energy? Are we life or just another cog in the machine of the entirety of the system? Well in this math we are machines, we are just another company as ourselves alone, only looking/caring out for our own survival LOLOOL we compete with eachother believing this to be beneficial for ourselves through making ourselves better LOLOL just like companies do, they create many sister companies under one parent company to compete with eachother to `better eachother` to make more money but in the end they all die, so why compete. It is senseless and it actually does not support progress. I mean you cannot compete, if you compete with another just because they exist, it does not matter whether you perceive yourself to be winning or losing, you are simply deceiving yourself from the fact that they are your sister, your brother, Made from the exact same genetic code = EQUAL. So yeah I mean even ourselves are not allowing ourselves to blossom into life, as we are only just another company looking for more money to `further/better` or survival not realizing that the ones who we are competing with are our equals.

Simply Support an Equal Money System, to show who you are as life and thus blossom, support this system and stay a machine, a company, and eventually wither away until you are left an empty building/body.

Within the Moment

Feb 12th 2011 5:54am


Time is how one can be within the moment. Each second be here each moment be here. Talking/typing here. When I write this I write from 5:54am. I am now at least. When I wrote before as these words are an example of how I write from memory, not from 5:55am. That is a cool perspective that I have not looked at before. In each moment of breath one equalized themselves with time. I write from now from here from/as breath. I do not look at the past and write I look at what is here within me and write. I see me. I cannot see myself entirely..but I am going on from knowledge and information of myself being sound, being a darkness. That is how I have extensively fucked with myself. Through knowledge and information. I think about my past knowledge and information, I place that knowledge and information into the current moment and live through/as the knowledge and information I have accessed. Sound is how I can tell whether or not I am here. If I can hear then I am here. If I cannot here then some corrections must be made…knowledge and information of being here = good. Simply, if I can’t hear then I am not here. I am somewhere else – thinking within my mind of something irrelevant because it is not here, I then become irrelevant, as I am not hear. I am not writing specifically from here, only within breath can I actually be here. The sound is key, when I hear sound I know I am not thinking. When I can hear all sound I can see in myself. I was hearing as I was looking within a want for a relationship, and it is only for sex, it is not a company thing nor a partnership thing only for sex. To be honest with myself in a relationship knowing and standing only for sex I am able to let all connections go. Because I am honest with myself. That is a positive Idea. So it is irrelevant. I am here typing with coffee, porridge, and toast to my left, These are the foods I and in the process of consuming. I was happy with myself for creating the porridge, a form of pride. I made porridge that has strawberries, blueberries, grapes, and a banana in it. I thought that this is a `good` meal so I created pride and happiness with myself for `creating` this meal. I read this over. It seems relevant, the idea of it is jibberish – meaning bullshit talk. I do not explain myself. I understand myself. That is all. I do not need to explain, should I explain myself. If I want to be understood possibly. But others understanding of me is irrelevant to who I am within the moment. I do not need to explain, if an explanation is wanted then I can give, but it is never a need. So for now this is only for me. I understand me as I write me. I am thinking of something to write. I am allowing ideas to pop up into my head through memory. I did not know what to write. I thought of something to write and second guessed myself. I thought it and did not immediately type it. I hesitated within thinking is this `good enough` towrite? Is it worth while to write that out. Will I bee seen as positivity if I write this? The whole Idea of positivity and wanting to be positive is something that I allow myself to fuck myself with. I think that positivity is wanted in any and every moment, and to `achieve` that is godlike. Trying to be godlike. I strive then for to be positive or seen as positive in every moment. As I have done this I have created the opposite side of this within my secret mind. Which I see and is completely disgusting. That which I think is completely ugly. I have tried to avoid it and place all the happiness up front so that I can be conscious of it, and then I suppress all of the ugliness within me. So writing and bringing that up is the best thing for one to do.

This Morning

This morning I woke up after roughly 5 hours of sleep. I got up showered made coffee made breakfast and started to write. After a while I thought about moving to a different location…one that was much more comfortable. I started to get sleepy and I stopped writing to watch a movie. I fell asleep through the movie to wake up at the credits. I decided to sleep and to not care about getting to the library on time to use the most of my time and not sleeping. I do not know where I am going with this. I have been sleeping for a long time and not caring for about 2 months now. I keep on planning to get up, but if I wait around I start to get tired and not want to find shit to do to move through the time. Today I wrote and then felt as if my writing was done and that I was satisfied with it and had to other goal….PROGRAM! Bernard’s words of “how does one keep a program going…give it another task”. I gave myself no other task in that moment so I slept. Lol I shut down the program. Interesting. So to move through this sleeping point is to de-program myself from needing tasks to stay awake. Interesting.

I am Responsible for This

Yesterday I went into inferiority. It lasted for quite a while knowing that I am not who I thought I was…this has happened before, yet somewhere I allowed it to continue again. This point assisted me a lot within stopping who I thought I was. I thought that I was somewhat stable and in realizing my application of myself I have noticed that this is not true. I feared starting over in my application of myself. I did not want to re-start over as I believed that I made `progress`. I was realizing that everything that I believed myself to be was a lie. I believed myself to be more than what I was believed myself to be on some type of path to myself. I realized this was al a lie, and that this is still a form of god for me. This whole belief of a path is believing that I have free will and that anything that I do is ok because I am on `that path`. I allowed myself to not take responsibility for myself because I thought that everything would be fine because I am on `that path`. So I went into an inferiority point because I saw myself as less than all others, believing myself to have been valueless as what I put value on as myself I realized is a lie. So I saw no value in myself as I did before. I went into a possession of hating myself. I did not want to do anything to assist myself…again I wrote myself out half assedly, not really trying to dive into the point. I felt inferior because I was jealous of other people being stable and me not being stable.


I realized that this inferiority, these beliefs of myself as being less than others is not real. It is all based on personality and who I believe myself to be. As well who I wanted to be. I wanted to be this stable person…so I was separating myself from stabilizing myself. I was believing myself to be what I wanted. I made myself believe that through thoughts and then had to face myself within these thoughts. In that moment I was somewhat accepting and allowing myself to exist like that. I was allowing it but stopped it from time to time, not allowing myself to participate in those feelings and emotions. I realize that I wanted to be like others not focusing on myself but trying to control myself to become like others that I saw as more than me = anybody in process. This is a great misunderstanding of who I am.

I am falling into the experience now as I am believing that my application in process is worthless and that I should not continue. I believe that my words are worthless and should not continue to write. I chose not to vlog today as I allowed this inferiority to take me over. I believe that my voice is worthless and that me standing up is not working. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place worth on my personality. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not value myself within/as my words. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to control/direct myself within/as my words. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be stable. I forgive myself fthat I have not accepted and allowed myself to stabilize myself. This whole point is one that I have been struggling with as I enjoy hating myself. I realized that I am addicted to both polarities. I enjoy hating myself as I like taking everything away from myself. I enjoy not giving into any thoughts..I usually will think that I want food and will not give in, I will reject that thought out of hate for myself. I will not allow myself to do anything that will take me out of that feeling. This is a fucked up point as it is not best for me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep myself in a point of self-hate. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate what I have become. I forgivemyself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to make amends with what I have become and correct it/mend it. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as this system. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to knowingly continue my time loops. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear standing up for myself. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear changing myself. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear removing myself from my patterned self.

This point is not really me. Whatever I believe myself to be inferior for is not real, it is no me. I have been directing myself in the physical. I am focusing on myself, what helps is keeping my head down when walking and focusing on my leg movement and actually moving myself as my legs and with breath. I have allowed this inferiority point to take control of me as I enjoyed being less than. I enjoyed hiding I enjoyed not being seen because within that I did not need to take responsibility as I was being ignored. I enjoyed being ignored because within that no one cared what I did I was allowed to become the worst of me, to involve myself in desires, in whatever pleases me drugs, masturbation, laziness, imaginations, fantasies.. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide myself. I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to expose myself. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to take responsibility for myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dive deep into my desires. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ignore myself. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ignored. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to expose myself taking full responsibility for myself. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire attention. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give myself attention. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create fantasies within my head, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to involve myself in imaginations. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an imaginary world trying to place it in this world. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to escape this reality by imagining another one. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse myself within separation that I have literally separated myself from everything. This is definitely going to be a hard process for me as I have created much shit within myself, and have accepted and allowed myself to become the `worst` of this world, fantasizing about rape, death, suicide, murder, Lol the polarity that I act as..I have always accepted and allowed myself to act as this nice, innocent person when in the mean time all of the shit that I have participated within my mind is the `worst` of this world. It is an absolute disregard for what life is. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to absolutely disregard life. I do not accept absolution as that is a word that defines never changing. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to change. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become what I am.

I realize that I cannot reason with myself I cannot debate about this inferiority it is either breathe or be inferior. I cannot convince myself that I am not inferior as everything that I see and have put value on I do not value myself as much as other people and within breath I am disregarding them as who I believe them to be. I disregard my own values and perceptions. They still exist and I do not not care for them as life I just do not care for my own interpretations for who they are I am focused on myself physically and I guide that. This has helped as when I would walk by a person I would not be focused on myself I have focused on them and immediately judged and focused on them and not giving myself awareness. So when I look down and focus on myself I focus on moving my feet focus on moving myself past them and focusing on moving my feet past them. Making sure that I direct me past them, making sure that I do not `stop and stare` giving my perceptions attention.

This helps with videos as well, I usually will look around and distract myself not giving attention to the words spoken, now I breathe and I focus myself on the words and hear their words.

Equal money system and Abuse

Ok so the Vanguard series is amazing. I have watched videos on extacy, cocaine, prison, oxy contin, tamil tigers and sri lanka. All these videos revolve around the topic of money. Money and religion and the religion is superiority contructs. It is meaningless assault and death on eachother and it is unacceptable...completely! Now I will start with the extacy trees. The workers have to drag massive metal barrels through dense forest and set up camp. It seems like very hard work. And They are aswell destroying the environment making the trees extinct as well as some of the animals...This is unacceptable as well. They set up camp and hunt and forge and chop down trees and do all that. They know what they do is illegal, and they know that they are being hunted in a sense. Now Usually I would define them as bad people as they have other options, but this is deception and I am not looking at the entire picture. I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to use the equality equation of 1+1=2 to look at the physical and see what and how things really are. They need to do this for money. A man in the cocaine video said it the best...A job can pay me 15 euros a day and then a man can come to me and say I can get you paid 100 euros an hour WHICH WOULD YOU TAKE? Me to feed myself and possibly a family would take the job of 100 euros. This is fucked up when harming life has more value then another job. And this is bullshit too that we allow the value of money to compete and interfere with the value of our lives, to value of necessities to eat, to have shelter, to have clothing. Fuck they have these options anyone and everyone will take this job. It is impossible to not when money is the key solution. I mean sure they can take that 15 euro a day job and live off of that but will it be enough? If not then illegality becomes involved. Equal money will solve all of this!!!! When everyone is supported equally as life for living to live, then none of this is necessity and we will actually have choice. Since we will be supported from life to death we will choose what to support with ourselves. Now if that person were to not need money to live then he would have the choice on what he wants to support, Would he choose to support drugs? Maybe but for me I would not because they do end up killing people and I would be directly supporting murder. I do not stand for that what so ever! With an EMS everything becomes questionable, removable, and not true choice exists, and what will inevitable exist will be what is best for all. Because no one will support anything that will harm others because truly we do care, but for money when we have to survive we end up doing whatever we can to survive, and this fear manifests self-interest absolutely. We end up not giving a fuck about our neighbour, especially when we are constantly worried about our living conditions and ability to live. Without money we cannot live. Money is our support for life and to spread it equally WHICH IS FUCKING SIMPLE! All life will be supported. Like oxygen, it is everywhere equally, for any and all life to live off of it, to support life, and since money is our support we must spread it around equally or give it to all equally—Thank you Matti for that explanation. No one will be the giver, we will all be getting. No one will have control of the spread of money, we will all be the control, as if one needs more to live off of, we all will need more to live off of. The flat rate that is given to us will all be equal. No less No more for anybody no matter title, job, `respect`, or speciality. Because none of that will be relevant in an Equality system, we wil all be equal, we will all have the ability to become doctors, or farmers, and they will all be equally valued because without one it compensates the entire livelihood of man. Now a lawyer will not exist because lawyers lie their ass off totry and `win` a case to get money to support themselves, whether it is moral or immoral, if they are supporting an abuser then there is no questioning what the outcome will be, there will be no defense of an abuser, responsibility will be taken. Now for the people that pay. They will not have power at all either. They will be equal to the people that they pay/enslave. They will have no point of influence over anyone else anylonger and if they continue to abuse then they will be dealt with accordingly, and I spelt dealth meaning that if they support death then they will die...That is my view but an eye for an eye will make us all blind. To look at it in equality if I were in the murderer’s shoes I would not care if I lived or died and actually living would be greater torture then death. So they will not be killed for killing, that solves nothing. It only supports a cycle that will not support all life. What will be done is that they will be isolated and re-educated—Thank you Bernard for that insight. I suppose I am writing this to understand the system for myself...to see how I understand the system. Now sports will exist but there will be not trophies or prises or rewards or belief of superiority for `winning`. The game will exist to be played, there will be no more defined winner or loser, there will only be players and the game. Take chess for example the goal of the game is to trap a king so that it cannot move without being `removed`, now that is all the will exist, the goal and the players, the goal that exists within and as the game, there will be no winner or loser. The goal will be the goal, winning will no longer be the goal, to play the game within the rules for and as self-expression will be the goal. There will be no more pride or sadness within winning or losing, that does not support equality, when playing as definitions right now applied to an equal sporting system, the winner and the loser will enjoy the game equally because there will be no projection or hope to win, there will only be playing the game, and if the game is fun and equally matched where it is a `tough` game then I am sure both will enjoy it equally. My experience...I went to a hockey game and one team was scoring a lot more goals on the other team and I found it boring, because there was no competition, there was no `challenge`. I mean sure the team that won would probably feel somewhat happy, but if the game were to be `tight matched` and equal within skill, then everyone enjoys the game because it is just fun to experience a match that is undecided or perceivable undecided. The game that I watched I knew the outcome so there was no point to continue to watch or keep attentive to it. Ok I think I may have made a mistake in my understanding. Even though one team may be scoring a lot more goals than the other team in an equality sporting system, the goal still exists, to score a goal or to achieve something, I mean if one team is scoring a lot more goals, then so what...that goal still exists and it can still be entertaining and fun to experience because winning is no objective, it is to score a goal, it is not to obtain more goals than the other team, it is to just score a goal. And when one team is scoring much more then the other, the only thing that will make it boring is the projection of a `win`. So looking at sports equally the same rules can stay but the reward system and superiority system will be removed and the winning losing system will be removed. Ok so that is my understanding of an equality system. Oh information should be equally accessible. News, information, education those are necessities. Entertainment is not, but the labour system works perfectly for that. Ok so for me... an equal labour system. An equal labour system is where one as a child learns a trade/skill that one is genuinely interested in. Money will not be a leading factor at all. That is what most people enter jobs for right now—the amount of money associated with the job, if someone really want to become a doctor then go for it they will genuinely want to help and assist people with their health, they will not do that for money, which is the end allows corruption to exist—if done for money. So an equal labour system will support self expression within and as self. Greed will no longer exist, there will be no need for greed because people will get what they need and not need to work for it, and greed cannot exist because no ONE will have power over the distribution of the money, all will have that power, that power being life, the necessity of life will be the power. So as far as I am concerned equal money will solve all problems. Protitution will not longer exist, drugs will not exist unless they are out of self-expression which would be absolutely interesting to see. Alcohol will definitely not exist, because that is honestly the worst drug right now because it is legal and you can get far too fucked up on it. It has all the same life ruining qualities as any other drug and should be banned right now but WHAT DO YOU K?NO!! money is in the backround, money fro m alcohol purchases supports the governments and do you think they want to part with that money??? Nope, because they people at the top are corrupt and they make personal money off of it. So there will be no governments in an EMS, there will be no points of power. There will be no positions of power. Because power implies control. And no one wil have control at all. All people will control the outcome in what is best for all.

Facing self and Standing up!

So 2 things I want to cover 1 an equal money system and the book that I am reading. 2 Facing the point that I have shared now and moved past.

I am going to start with the point that I have removed fro mmy past. So 2 days ago there was a point that was brought up of my past sexual experience with a friend. I was completely scared to share this point so I kenw that I must, I had deep regret, embarassment and disgust for myself for this point that I have been holding onto and now I have let it go. So I wrote about it on the desteni forum and applied self-forgiveness for my emotions and feelings associated with the event. So I added him on facebook and talked to him. I brought up the point although there was some initial resistance. I needed to know that he has moved past it, or I would feel guilty about bringing that upon him and I would take responsibility for it. So I brought it up and it wasn't just a get in get out conversation, because it has been like that before, I held that topic for a while explaining myself so that I could not shy away from it any longer. He has moved past it, and now I can let that go knowing that he has moved past it, because I would still hold onto it within guilt if he had not. feels relieving to release it.

And the book that I am reading. It is called Capitalism's Achilles Heel. Great book. The author has been in a lot of corruption in the past few decades and knows a lot of corruption scandles and illegal money systems. The first chapter is to how to create your own false money, through dummy corporations, through mis-pricing, through Private investment companies, Through something called kickbacks, which are just incentives to give a company the deal...For example a company wants some Computers, The heads of the company both know eachother, and are `friends`. The company buying the computers will add an extra 15% onto the price for, service fees or for things like `being a good company`=something along the lines of that bullshit. That extra 15% will get wired to a offshore bank account with a low taxation and then the individual will get rich using company money. And the same can be done back and forth and usually are. What is interesting is that he has named almost everybank in the world being involved in illegal money handling. And that shows me that banks are the worst institutions around, most likely because they have the power of the money and the people who use banks to support their illegal trades will give a kickback to the CEO of a bank as well as other people of power. As well as pure bullshit! He gives an example of selling a bunch of comfortors with a thread count of 400 when actually being described and recorded for 250=being a lower quality. Therefore the difference in the money...My understanding is that a company pays for a 400 thread count product, recieves 250 and the extra money goes to the head of the company that sold it, so the difference goes to the President or CEO of someother motherfucker. What I really like about this author is that he recognizes the state of this world and he recognizes the consequence of dirty money. He knows that dirty money being supported is money taken away from countries' development and a dignant lifestyle for its people. He gives an example of Nigeria...I am running this off my memory which is not completly reliable, A president in the late 80's to early 90's extored in one year 2.5 times the GDP of Nigeria. So he made 2.5 times more money than the entire nation of Nigeria. Now this money could have gone to its citizens, it could have provided a much better life for them, but this fucker had to be greedy with the money, and the fucked up thing is that this system allows it, it allows this complete corruption of the world for a single few to live in wealth while a lot more live in poverty and worry about their ability to exist on a day to day basis.      A lot of money is transferred through illegal trades. Dirty money is abundant and forever increasing. Because of the pyramis of money, Wholesalers sell it to dealers and the dealers make more money than they bought it for, increasing the money within illegal trades and corruption. Politicians are just as involved, their `crime` might be considered white collar but they still support the drug trade, they support dirty money.They are just as corrupt as any other person using abuse to make money.    

Equal money will solve this shit, it will no longer be in existance, because it will stop where it is needed. Prostution exists because they need money to survive and are often lured into prostitution by being offered different jobs and being basically kidnapped and forced into it. Equal money will solve this because people will no longer be searching for a way to make money, because they will already have the money provided to them that they need to live. Drugs will no longer exist, because the people who transport it are unwilling for the most part and are doing it for the money. Equal money has the same affect on them as well, It has the same affect on the entire world. No greed will exist, No more working for something that you do not want to work for, Only working for what you want to do for this world and yourself.

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For The Masses

So We have been Constantly forgetting that we are lives mostly due to the fact that we are thinknig about munny constantly. WE focus on our jobs or houses or so to speak Lives>! WE are submitting to money even though we don't like having to participate in it, The only ones who enjoy money are the rich. YEs it is luxiourious and comfortable to have what we have but at what expense.? Yourselves, What did you think of then? Your body or what you define as life? What Im saying is jsut stop right now, Leave let be/Stop and Drop Everything and no more money trouble, so no more property ownershit, and all other possessional status that you have with anything else. When there is no electricity items that we put some worth to become valueless, when theres no more care of whom it belongs to. Live freely from anything that we have dfined as stresses or worries or cares, still care for the people around you and live free from judgment from people around you for minor insecurities about themselves, Why people are racial has nothing to do with the fact that the others are different than them It has to do with the fact that they are insecure with something within himself. So Yes I Understand that with all these masses of people some must die Un fortuneatly yes. But Why We Fear death is only Because We don't Understand Death. And To Understand Death Isnt't that hard just an opened mind and clear perception of what you see. If your free from any preconceived Belief of how things are and came to be then take a look at desteniproductions on youtube and just watch and listen to see if you find truth in what exists in the words spoken. And Then you can understand Death. Hopefully with knowledge of death you no longer fear it, But just to exist as it because death does not exist seperately from you! Its inevitable that we die so why worry about it, yes it may hurt or be unpleasent in some way but fuck its not like if you avoid that pain now to never feel what ever death is going to feel like. So Again Stop Dead Right NOW! And Spread the message of True freedom! No More possessions and Use common Sense to Judge how you best would live within the enviroment that we currently have but only if All that we currently have here is unoperated. I would say Start Grabbing fruit from the Grocerey stop but not franticly and planting them wherever they can be, and dont worry about "oh maybe ill die before this try grows to riping" but know that you in time created better survival for what ever is left and what ever there will be when you die. sO Will you?