Perspective on EMS

Aug 8^th
Today was my third day in a row being cut early from work. I would normally be stressed out about this as I usually work 8 hour days and in the past 3 days I have worked 3 hour days so that is 9 hours for the 24 that  should have worker = much less money.

The only reason I am not stressed out is because I know that I still have financial backing = I have enough money in my account that I can survive off of for the time being as I know that this is only temporary. Since I know that I have enough funds to support myself I can let that stress go, whereas if someone is down to their last few dollars and has rent to pay at the end of the month I would understand that they would be incredibly stressed out over the fact that they may not work enough to get enough money to pay rent to keep a shelter above their head.

It is nice to be free from stress and money worries and this is what we are proposing within an Equal Money System. In an Equal Money systems `money` will be directly put into ones account so that one has the available funds to support oneself within a system of exchange, that exchange being equal money credits. One is supported to have everything that one needs to be able to survive comfortably in this physical reality, and thus one is free from stress when `quaffs` like this happen, which most likely would not happen in an EMS

This is an example of what an EMS would be like, where one does not need to worry about getting a job and working a set amount of hours in order to be able to feed, clothe, shelter oneself and ones family within this physical reality. It makes life stressless, It does not make it less stressful but stressless as one does not need to worry about how one is abel to put food on the table for tomorrow, or that night possibly, and the fact that that exists is absurd.

Many people who are able to put food on the table for themselves and their family do not question anything within this system as they have everything that they need and thus can focus on things other than `how the fuck are my children going to eat tonight?`, so the people who already have what they need are not in support of a new system as humans have become separated only focusing on themselves individually and not looking at the entire picture of `what is humanity going through` and taking into consideration if one would like to live in the other’s shoes.

I doubt anyone wants to live in impoverished person’s shoes, I have thought about it and I, from ego, have said yes to make believe myself to be benevolent, but in SELF-HONESTY I would fucking hate being in their shoes, I would loath the condition in which I would exist in, and unfortunately I do not express gratitude for what I have. = I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see that what I have in my reality is a fucking luxury, that I am fortunate to have the things that I have when others do not have ANY food to eat for the day
 

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to consider what others have to go through in order to survive in this world, and within this I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to do everything possible to bring about a better world so that all may have the luxury that I have and be able to exist without fear of having to eat, stay warm, or stay breathing at the end of the day.

I would not enjoy being in their shoes, so why do I allow it to exist? Why do we allow it to exist, why do WE exist in ignorance of the people who suffer tremendous pain in order to stay BREATHING at the end of the day. I do not accept this as a reality, I do not accept this reality as a reality, and that is why I stand with Desteni and understand that an EMS is a solution to the strife in this world, where finally others can consider eachother as equals instead of within separation of `I am rich and they are poor`. In An EMS consideration will be given to all equally and the question would or should be asked do I want this for myself as them? Would I walk in their shoes? Would I want to Walk in their shoes? And within a System of Equality I would be self-honest when I say yes I would walk in their shoes as we walk as equals meaning they have no less than I do, others have no more than I do, everything is supported as life and thus I would not care if I were to exist as anything as it is all life.

So the other point here is that since humanity is being ridiculous about standing up and that life is now directing itself = there is going to be a point of suffering so that one is able to realize that this is what we have accepted and allowed to exist as ourselves, as this world is an expression of ourselves. Anyways yes suffering is needless if people were to simply see the system for what it is, but since humans are not doing that suffering is basically imminent at the moment, as it will help people see that THIS IS WHAT WE ARE ALLOWING! And from that moment take a stand to make their lives better and thus everyone else’s life better.

So Stand up and decide to not go through suffering to realize that this is what we are existing in, place yourself in another person’s shoes and decide whether or not you would walk in their shoes for a LIFETIME, then decide what you would want for them as ourselves.

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A Deeper look at Working and Awareness within

Mar 14th 2011 3:30am


I got off of work and I am here with my body and I am quite exhausted. I am breathing and my physical needs rest. So I am here resting, sitting down and watching half assedly a movie, as I am now more attentive to the writing. So this is what I have been allowing myself to do. My breathing within work was ok for the first bit, well not my breathing but my lack of thought., it was non-existent for the first 2-3 hours then I fell into thoughts as I was placing myself within music and ego projections and backchatting. So after that I am now a bit physically exhausted. Now I do do a lot of physical work within that job, so I mean, I can get exhausted…I am not tired sleep wise, I just need physical rest. This is interesting because sometimes I feel like this from my other job and then I will push myself to keep going and go to the library and not allow my physical to rest, as there is not really a comfortable place at the library to rest. There is a lot of lifting within the job that I came from, my arms are tired as well as my legs as I move constantly for 5 hours, and then within my next job I will be constantly moving for 4 hours, constantly standing on my feet. This is a terrible way to make a living, terrible way to live…either we are sitting at a desk for the day or are on our feet for a day, each is not helping the human physical body, this world is created to place stress on every individual so that we exist in that state of stress only worrying about our own life not allowing ourselves to consider all life on this planet, this is from what I have experienced. So Stress is something that needs to be moved past by everyone, and most of this stress is fear of death, fear of loss, fear of survival, in which I have realized does not matter, because it is either going to happen or not, this fear has no use within life, it is only a fucked up point, I mean I can fear losing my job all I want it is not going to change the fact of me losing it or keeping it, therefore fear is purposeless, it is irrelevant to reality, fear does not exist within reality.

Anyways I placed myself within music and not within the physical within breath, so yes music is a distraction point from facing myself within work. I was looking at why I want to distract myself from work, and I came to a point of not wanting to face the fact that I have to work/ do that job to survive, that what I am doing has been valued….now that I look at it it angers me. The value is all placed on looks, on some fucking design, some type of deception….I have to front face at work, and this I really want to escape within because it is so pointless as it is only for a look, it is for the store to look for hiding the empty space behind it, and this is valued within society enough to give money to me for doing it, and I am actually valued less than this point…I as life in this fucking world am valued less than a deceptive point of a look. Meanign that if I do not do this I do not get money, I am not able to support myself thus I am valued less, because in order for me to survive, in order for me to keep living I must do some basic dumb fucking task to get money. The task is valued as money, not me. That is disgusting! The task gets value attributed to it, not me. I must perform the task, and if I do not I get fired and thus no money, no life. I am one and equal to/as the task I realize this yes, it is not separate from me, but the point still remains that if I do not do this task my life is not supported, I must support this task to support myself, and the fact still remains as well that this task is all about a look, that a look that I can create is valued more than myself as breath as without myself doing this task I am not supported as life within/through money. The look, the task has a value to it, as the company values the look, not the life creating the look.

Letting go of Anger and Happiness.

I have been able to get over anger easier in the past few days. I would in the past sit on anger and blame all others for my own anger. The past few days I was feeling very aggitated because of my own actions and occurances within my own life.

One example is at work. I was cutting open a skid, and the skid had some product removed from it.  I thought nothing of it but when I did open it everything started to fall. Some milk spilt....lol crying over spilt milk. And other product fell and broke and I had to clean it up. I thought that one of my co-workers opened and removed the product from the boxes. I immediately blamed others for what I went through. The reality was that this was my own fault and no others. I was backchatting after this happened, and `dealing` with my anger through that. I noticed myself participating in this and stopped it and forgave it. And was able to actually get rid of the anger with using breath and forgiveness. I was trying to not take responsibility for this by thinking of smoking. I stopped that and took responsibility for my own anger and let it go. This was all related to time and work. I Was stressed that this event took up time and that I had to use all of my time effectively and that this event took away time. I was stressed that this would affect my job, and that my manager would look down on me for not getting my work done and `trust` me less to do my job. I was able to let all of this go by taking responsibility for this.

The second time I got angry was the day after. Everything was going `wrong`. I woke up 10 minutes before I had to leave for work. The sidewalks were not plowed. All of this was leading up to being late to work and again I was stressed about the whole responsibility for work. I was having trouble letting this go. I then started to do a recording. And within doing that  Iwas able to see everything that I was holding within and not allowing myself to see clearly. Again usually I would allow myself to exist in anger for hours and it would compound.
These are examples of how I have been able to now allow myself to let go of anger.

Recently I have been taking on my happiness. I am addicted to happiness. Each time I talk to a person or communicate I try and gain some type of happiness from that experience. I am always making light of a situation...=consciousness. Anyhow, what I have been doing within work is letting go of that energy immediately. I will talk and laugh with a co-worker and then immediately let it go. I have allowed that situation to replay within my mind thousand times over so that I could become happy and happy and ahppy and happy. I have been stopping this as happiness has allowed me to take myself away from what is real. Away from what is actually happening in this world, and my constant search for it is abusive unto myself. Fidelis said in a video that he uses the past to look for happiness within the present, this is exactly what I do, I do it with the immediate past and any other situation that has made me happy that I have locked into place within my mind. So I have been stopping this as it is a must.

When Ido this I have that energetical feeling within me and I breathe and `dispell` it immediately. I do not allow myself to sit on that feeling thus allowing myself to retain this happiness and `psychotic` smile upon my face. It literally is psychotic because I am smiling at nothing, only what is existent within my mind, it is not being here. Slowly I am applying myself in not participating in these happy conversations. I find it hard as it is an addiction. Slowly but surely I will get this done!

Stress and Work

Stress within work


Watching sunettes video about stress a thought came up of “How can I do this during work”. This thought came up because Both of my jobs are time constrained and I must really rush myself in each moment to get things done…well that is how I have approached the problem. That is how I have become a solution. Each time I have worked before I created stress is that I would take it easy on myself and try and enjoy the time I have within breathing and moving and thinking within my comfort zone unfortunately. I would take my time and relax and enjoy but then I got written up for poor performance and I started to fear for my job fear for money so I started to rush myself to try and get the things that they ask me to get done. Both jobs this has happened where Time is being pushed and I am fearing for my survival more and more which is bullshit because death is much more pleasant then stress. So what has happened is that I have to rush now to try and get as much done as possible within the one job so that we make the `time` allotted to us. But what is extremely fucked up is that the store opens now a half hour earlier and it is Christmas time so we are getting more stock…we open boxes of clothes in the morning that are transported to the store, and are expected to get them all open and sorted in the time allotted, but they have given us more product to open and less time to open is and are still expecting us to get t done properly. And right now my survival is dependant on these jobs so I am obviously living this bullshit out that I have created. I have been wanting to experience what people have to go through so that I can and ezperience what they do. So I have now experienced the fear of surviving and what we do to push ourselves to force ourselves to make money to survive, Which is fucking crazy. So there is a lot of stress and I was thinking about how to apply myself within this and that is I must not care for 1 and just breathe and move for 2. I cannot judge myself based on how much I get done…I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself based on the belief of how well I work. I must realize and I will start to spply realizing myself within breath while working and write down any and all reactions to my job…believing that I can’t do it etc. Right now Even before I have tried I believe that I cannot do it because eof the personality that I move into and as as I participate in work. The grocery store job I must be absolutely effective in Directing myself in every moment to become effective in that job…that is how I can overcome and remove stress in that job. That will be interesting and I think I cannot have music with me to achieve that. Because my mind goes straight to the words within the song and I focus on that and not where I must direct myself in each moment. So that is how to do it I will apply myself tomorrow and remember to apply breath I each moment. I will start applying it within the walk to work and not stress about anything simply be here in the moment and direct myself accordingly. Ok so one thing that I have noticed that I have blamed it on is I inhale all this dirt and dust from the boxes and after a while my stomach hurts, but that could definitely be from the thoughts and the feelings f stress I put on myself because I have asked another and he said that he does not feel this. So it is me not the boxes. Anyhow after this feeling comes on I do not move myself as fast…I completely and utterly want to let go, want to stop working then and there. I feel physically ill and I do not want to continue with working with the feeling. So I will see what I am thinking whenI am working and write it down.