Self-Interest as Self-Sabotage

I have been quite self interested throughout my life to the extent where my self interest lead to me manifesting a consequence that is diabetes. My self interest does not help me become life, it only allows me to suppress myself as life. For example when I was at home I would go through points where I would sit down and watch shows endlessly and eat candy throughout that time which is not what is best for me as a human body and certainly not best for me as a diabetic. So I had to ask myself why I was doing this and find out the origin point. A point that I found is that it is for my pursuit of happiness where I associated entertaining myself with happiness and sugar with happiness throughout my childhood. It is not beneficial for myself to have self-interest whatsoever as that is relevant through my actions and consequence within and as self-interest. What I have also found within investigating myself is that I truly do not enjoy the experience of myself in/as self-interest because it ends up as regret, shame, and guilt. It does not feel good knowing that I allowed myself to eat a great amount of candy and become lazy, and that is what I have defined as happiness. But that is not true happiness. What I have found within myself is that what makes me happy is educating myself, writing myself out, getting done my assignments, because as I am participating in/as self-interest I am attempting to find happiness outside of myself, where when I actually get my assignments done or work on them to a point where I am satisfied I become `happy` in regards to trusting myself to manage myself and make myself more effective within/as the system.

So self-interest is not self-interest but self-sabotage and be wary of self-interest because it is the worst thing that one is able to do to themselves, because all responsibility is given up when self-interest is participated in and if participated in within a pattern the responsibilities build up and up and then one is overcome with guilt, shame and regret then participate in the opposite where all the actions are manipulated within/as the shame and regret instead of being a starting point of a realization of what one has done and act to stop participating in it, because if it is within the energetic polarity then the actions of self-interest are able to repeat. This is where self-forgiveness comes in because if one does not forgive self for in fact sabotaging self no responsibility is taken for the point and if anything only avoidance is acted upon and then the pattern is able to repeat itself. Forgiving self is how one is able to transcend self in fact, because it was me in fact that was allowing myself to and still participate in self-interest.

What I have found that helps is removing the point of happiness and the energetical stimulation that is connected to the word happiness. So as one speaks the word happiness points come up in self that happiness is connected to, then self forgiveness is applied to the pictures, thoughts, images to what self has connected to happiness then one is able to find out what one in fact truly enjoys. What is best for me is removing self-interest and ego in that manner in order to find out what I truly enjoy and it does not need to be within a certain limitation meaning I can go to school for any subject because I simply enjoy learning where if I were to go to school within what I like or want within a educational program my options are limited between what I have told myself I like, which has not been real in my participation of it thus I don’t trust that my wants or likes in terms of choosing a school program is going to be helpful for me.

Remove self-interest remove your ego in which you have been programmed into believing that you like something. Focus on what one is able to do in this reality in order to make self’s life better and life better for all. No other starting point is valid in equality and oneness, all other options are self-interest. Join Desteni to learn more

2012 Why Aliens are not coming to `Save us`

2012 Why Aliens are not coming to `save us`

It is a commonly held belief that a race of superior beings will come down this year and rescue only a certain few to restart the human race over again once the `shit has hit  the fan`. Unfortunately, no matter how great this sounds, this is not going to happen. If aliens were watching us they would see and understand that we as humanity are simply killing ourselves and are deciding to do nothing about it. They would the understand that humans are complete morons and should not exist another generation because all that we have done throughout our history is abuse, rape, demolish, de-life the Earth.

Take a look at what if aliens were watching us. They would see us killing eachother. They would see us clearing out forests that provide oxygen for us as well as all other non-plant life on this Earth. They would see us destroying wildlife habitats continuously. They would see us dehumanizing other humans because of a belief in who `created us`. They would see people allowing people to starve to death while others get to live in a luxury that is unheard of in the natural world. They would see animals being raised so that they can be slaughtered, they would see animals being kept in conditions that are horrendous, abused and tortured. Given all this that they would see on a MASS scale why would they decide that humanity must live on and that a few must repopulate the Earth? Because of Love? Unfortunate as it is, love has never existed and will never exist within/as humanity in the current state of/as humanity = look at the entirety of the human race and its actions and tell me if there is anything that resembles love. Because a few specific human beings love? Again, no that does not exist either, in the micro and macrocosm all relate each other equally thus one human is equal to all of humanity thus not one human loves when humanity exists the way it does. Thus why would an `intelligent` being decide to save humanity? If an alien was intelligent it would know not to waste its time on humanity because humanity has shown what it actually is.

So people, we have created this mess that we are currently surrounded by and we must get ourselves out of this mess. There are no alien races that will be coming to save our asses from our own shit, we must take responsibility for what we have created here on Earth and fix ourselves as the mess that we have created. We must fix this mess by `fixing`/changing ourselves into something that supports life. This takes a reworking of our Nature as human beings, and it first takes an understanding of our Nature as human beings currently. It is not going to be fun because we must face the shit that we are in order to become fertilizer for life. We must forgive ourselves for what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to exist as and do, so that we can move past how we are acting and re-create ourselves in equality in the physical as Earth/Universe. Investigate the tools of Self-honesty, Self-forgiveness, Self-correction as well as the principles of what is best for all and Equality and Oneness at http://desteni.org . Research, investigate, and support an Equal money system as the solution for a method on how to receive the necessities of life at http://equalmoney.org

Polarity and Sickness

I recently was looking at how the body must regulate a temperature between, I am not 100% sure on the numbers, 95-98 degrees Fahrenheit. Then I was looking at the point f going too far in one direction or the other and effectively becoming sick. This was interesting to look at, as within the world humans are quite polarized between money = the rich and the poor, and it is obvious to see that the human has a sickness in fact, to such an extent that the human is sickness, we are disease.

So I have been moving up and down within polarity quite heavily for the past 2 weeks, polarity of deciding to do correspondence that I must get done to up my grades to go into post-secondary education, deciding to work on my DIP assignment, cleaning up the house, and taking responsibility for my reality. I have been polarizing that with `fucking off` and watching youtube videos for hours on end, with sleeping, with eating sugar, with not treating myself within the living fact of what is best for me. Within that I recently became quite fucking sick. I came down with a hoarse cough so much so that I my breathing has become wheezy, and have been feeling fatigued due to the sickness. Here is where the interesting part comes in. I, today, decided to push through much resistances, much `fucking off` that I have been accepting and allowing myself, and have pushed myself to take responsibility for my reality and get my ass back in alignment, and to stop going too far within the polarity. I have been working on my English assignment for a few hours now, I have been pushing myself to do the things that I have been putting off, to fuck off, and get them done effectively. So right now, my sinuses are much more clear! My cough is not as hoarse! And my fatigue level is not relevant anylonger as I am just here writing, doing the things that I have been putting off I am not dreading doing what I have to = just doing it and within that fatigue is gone. I have `forgotten` about my cold. This is quite cool as the physical is showing me me, is showing how I create myself through what I accept and allow within/as myself and the manifested outcomes of said acceptance and allowance.

Responbile for all that exists

My perception of self-responsibility was that of only being responsible for my actions, but it is not. It is not only what I accept and allow within and as my actions, but it is a realization that coming to Earth I have accepted and allowed everything that is here. I accepted and allowed aging to exist, I accepted and allowed death to exist, I accepted and allowed the polarity of life and death to exist. I accepted and allowed the systematic construction of nature. I accepted and allowed

Through coming to this Earth I have inherently accepted everything that is here. I accepted the design of the trees, I accepted that the human must eat to survive, I accepted the electronics industry, I accepted that children will be bombed, I accepted that war is within the Human Nature I accepted the human nature in its entirety.

I have thought that I was susceptible to the physical, that it creates itself. That I am here and subject to the physical and its whims. I did not realize that I accepted and allowed and am thus responsible for all that is here within/as the physical. I got this belief from our accepted and allowed beliefs of what being a human is, thus our beliefs of what a human is is not in fact truth.

The point of taking responsibility for all things here is a massive point to deal with. Because I must then ask the question, is what is here best for all, is aging best for all, is the purpose of eating best for all, is the design of legs best for all, is the design of trees best for all, are animals best for all, is the design of the soil best for all. Looking at these points and realizing that I accepted it as what it is means that I am equally responsible through acceptance for what is here. Thus I am responsible for what is here. All beings on this Earth are responsible for this Earth through being here on this Earth, and the point that I did not look at before was the point of EVERYTHING. Eating, shitting, breathing, the eyes, the animals, the way animals live, the way humans live, capitalism, products, the polarity here, the timeloops and cycles here ,the weather, the nature, the ships, the cargo, the past, the present, everything that is here I am responsible through accepting MYSELF as here.

I believed that the physical, the design of the physical was set in stone, I thought that the physical would never be able to change its  ways, thus me as the physical, I believe that I am never to change my ways, I believed that who I am has been set in stone when in fact change is possible. Change is absolutely achievable, and if I am able to change who I am then the physical, nature, animals are able to change who they are. I am still limited by my participation within the mind, thus I am only able to change who I am within the mind…I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am limited to the mind. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that the physical is not able to change, that the nature of the physical is not able to change and within that accept the belief that human nature is not able to change when in fact it is clear that it is able to change through the examples of Bernard Poolman, of Sunette Spies, of all that have changed their ways, of all that has shown change is absolutely possible. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am subject ot the physical, that  am here as a human only as a cell within the whole, subject to the workings of the whole, not able to change the whole.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that we must stand as the whole to make a substantial effort in changing the physical, that we as all as the whole must stand as one dedicating the same amount of effort to change this reality, as we have all dedicated the same amount of effort to accept reality as it is.

Through the belief that I am subject ot the physical I have abdicated self-responsibility for myself here within the physical. I believed that I am subject to the whole, not realizing that I am equally creating the whole as myself, and if I make a change within myself I can influence and infect the whole, so if I make a change for what is best for all I infect, influence the whole within what is best for all, then the whole is thus able to decide and realize what it is doing in fact as well, and decide to make that change for what is best for the whole/ALL as well.

I realize that as a cell within the whole I am only able to change myself but through changing myself I am able to infect, influence all others within the whole to get them to  change as well, thus not accepting what is here any longer and abdicate self-responsibility for being the creators of EVERYTHING that is here .

I am not subject to the physical, I am here as the physical able to change myself, first I must move through who I am within the mind to change myself as who I am as the physical.

I am a cell within the whole of the physical, I am able to change myself and influence others and stand with/as others to move the whole to change this reality into what is best for all.

Equal Responsibility

Equal Responsibility
Today I found out that the friend whom I have abused in the past has been greatly affected by my actions. In this I realize that I am absolutely responsible for him. He has been going through extensive anger and hatred towards me for my actions. I am responsible for his life in the manor through being responsible for my actions I am responsible for the outcome of my actions which in fact are his actions.

I am responsible equally for him, as we all are for eachother = we are all equally responsible for eachother. I am responsible for him joining the army due to anger, I am responsible for his want for fighting, I am responsible for his tears, I am responsible for him letting out his anger, and I am responsible for the acts of his anger = if he were to fight someone due to his anger I am responsible for that fight.

The actions I have done in the past I have let go, but they are not gone, I am not done taking responsibility…I cannot take responsibility solely for him, I must take responsibility for realizing that I have created this equally in him as he is equally responsible for himself. In this I take responsibility for assisting him in letting it go as well, and my actions are not let go until he has as well let them go.

This exists for everyone in this world, we are all responsible for eachother until we all let our pasts go. I will not stop until he has let it go, and for that HE must let it go, I can only assist, in that I take responsibility for assisting him, as I have equally created him as well as himself through as my actions which has led to his actions.

I learnt today that the anger within him has caused him much harm, I am responsible for this harm, my abuse has carried on for years. I learnt that he has wanted to kill me, has thought about killing me, thought about causing harm to me, and this I am as well responsible for…everything that has been an effect from the abuse I am responsible for as I am responsible for my actions.

This is a very interesting topic!! I was hit by one of my parents when I was a kid, and the point of the abused become the abuser pops up as I am writing this. My mom’s dad greatly troubled her when she was a child too, there was physical harm and emotionally disturbing things done to her as a child and again the point of the abused become the abuser comes up again, so looking at this, my grandfather’s actions have stemmed all the way to me and past the blood line, and before that as well my grandfather must have been abused at some point as well, can’t say for sure but nonetheless our actions carry on far past ourselves and even our deaths.

This point is relevant within the money system, as we are all accepting this money system, and thus through/as the money system which spans the world, we are responsible for all that money is connected to through accepting the money system. Thus we are ALL equally responsible for poverty, for wealth, for greed, for corporations etc. Only when we make a stand as ourselves to better this system as ourselves through changing this system through changing ourselves do we actually make a change, and to change this world we all must change ourselves into something w can place all that live here on Earth within/as.