Justice and Anger

A Man In Scarborough, Ontario has been accused of assaulting his family a number of times and of sexually assaulting one of his patients in his dental practice. He has been charged on three incidents of assaulting his family members. He got angry at his daughter for wanting to leave a family friend’s house and hit her ankle with a metal rod when they came home, ending her up in the hospital the day after. He became angry with his wife and threw a knife at her piercing her leg. He Threw a metal toy car at his son for telling his father to stop beating his wife. He has been charged six months in jail for his crimes and his dental license has been revoked.

2 things that can be discussed here are the point of justice and the point of the demon possession that is anger.

The fact that he has been sentenced to six months in jail is not going to solve his problems of lashing out on others because of his anger. The entire point of the justice system is not a correction it is a `quick fix` solution that does not actually fix the problem. Incarcerating this man is not going to give him the tools and understanding that he needs to deal with his anger. The only point that this may serve is installing fear in him so that he does not lash out again in this matter causing him to suppress the anger which causes a lot of health problems as well. In the justice system when people are jailed, it never ends up as a solution. It is a Temporary fix to the problem. It does not allow the person to investigate themselves in how they have made themselves angry, and why they choose to lash out on other in a way to deal with their anger. It does not provide tools to release the anger from within him, nor does it offer assistance to realize himself in his anger. Jailing a criminal does not solve the problem from happening again as it always deals with the problem after the fact, the real solution here would be stopping the issue from ever happening, thus the justice system is not a solution for this man’s anger, it is a punishment when anger should not be punished but understood.

The possession of anger is the accumulation of thoughts that manifest outbursts such as these that cause harm to others and self. This world does not support the self-understanding nor the ability to deal with through living a solution to anger. Thus events like these are able to happen. This world system does not stop events from happening prior we only deal with the consequences after which is not a solution to the events themselves, as a solution to the events would to be preventing them from happening in the first place. In the article it is never said or investigated as to why he got angry, or what was bothering him to the extent that he would lash out on his family members. He simply was sentenced to sit in jail = it is similar to being sent to sit in a corner when we were children = it didn’t solve our actions, only installed fear in us. This world is not set up in a way to give us the time to understand ourselves, thus we need a new way of living, and since our way of living is based on money we need a new way of dealing with money. Would this man beaten his family if he would have been given the funds to support his life? Would the family have stayed with this man if they were financially supported on their own? For the answers visit http://equalmoney.org and to start learning tools for self-investigation visit http://desteni.org

Pattern of Sleeping

Feb 21st 12:20pm 2011


I woke up this morning from 5 hours of sleep I got up pissed and layed down by the fire with my cat and slept some more. I knew that once I layed down that I was quite likely to sleep again which I did not want to do yet I took no action towards it. I ended up sleeping for roughly an hour by the fire and when I woke up I decided that since I slept there I was going to sleep more…since I fell there I will fall more. I find it hard to stand up from falling in this context, I say I will but the action are not there. The thoughts are there yet no actions. This needs to be solved. I acted upon the though `If I have fallen what could hurt if I fell further?` So I did. I allowed myself to sleep 12 hours. I have been allowing this to happen for a few days now. There is a point in this as well where I know that I can move and stay up…after I woke up from sleeping by the fire, I layed down on the couch and remembered that I was going t stretch in the mornings to assist me to wake up. I did not act on that thought, so really I want to sleep. The reality of the situation is I get up feel tired and `decide` to sleep purposefully. I then feel guilty about this for letting myself down and not waking myself up when I know I can. I deliberately ignore or participate in the thoughts that will lead me to more sleep.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be dishonest with myself thinking that I am going to stop sleeping 12 hours.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to be honest with myself in realizing that I purposefully act to sleep 12 hours to escape reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to sleep to escape reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give up on myself within standing up within sleeping 4-6 hours.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deceive myself believing that I am going to stand up

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to place myself within reality when this point occurs

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place myself within my mind thinking about the problem and solution while not taking responsibility within my actions, allowing myself to fall into patterns of myself.

Self-corrective application here is to take responsibility for myself within these moments and applying myself as responsibility for getting myself up and waking myself up and not allowing myself to further place myself within the mind acting on the feeling of being tired.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to purposefully sleep allowing myself to not trust myself.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to take responsibility and act on the solution
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not take responsibility by ignoring the solution as myself and hoping that it will all magically happen

Exposing Deception

The deception that I am directing in this moment to no longer fear is an ego point. Everytime someone has posted comments on my youtube channel or my blod or facebook I become smiley and happy with the thought that someone has noticed me for being what I wanted to be = an activist. I am within this deception of who I am as life.

I enjoy believing myself to be an activist. Which I am not. I am life here. Within this I become confident in my actions and happy believing myself to be effective through validation of what I believe myself to be via others comments. Within this I have been participating in desteni form an alterior motive starting point other then self honesty. It has been a starting point of trying to prove that I am something and doing something. This shows up in a lot of my actions...my anger towards people's comments of this is the way it is and there is no point in trying to change it. I get angry in this because as I have defined myself as an activist, I try and stand up and prove myself as being an activist for this world within and as my anger.

I am exposing this point because I can see this biting me in the ass. I am exposing this because this belief has stopped me from participating in my reality freely...free from ego. This belief, would have stopped me from participating in desteni freely...I would only choose to expose certain things, from seeing what others have typed....meaning that I would only move within a point if someone has moved already within that point. So that I have a belief basis in how to use the words and to use my actions. This showed up to me in my first vlog post. I said that I had a lot of reactions because I saw others saying this same point...looking at it I made myself believe that I had a lot of reactions when there really was none. I said this because others have gone before me saying the same thing. So I could become a copycat of what they were saying and believing them to be stable I would then project myself as `stable`. There is a large fear within me of being kicked out of desteni, resulting from this point of being a copycat and not living for and as myself...that is why I am here now typing this out because I will no longer participate in that.

To put this into perspective in the banksy movie, the main person that they were documenting was a person who only video taped everything and gained knowledge of how to move around in the underground graffitti movement. He then started to do the same things that he learned from others. He started to make his own stencils from no orginality, his origin was not from himself. His orgin was from how he saw others and how he could obtain that by doing exactly the same thing. He then put on a gallery in which he only wanted publicity...that was his priority. I have a large fear to him and his actions because I saw that as me and I saw that as how I have been. I connect the dots only now. Connect the points. I have defined this as being a leech. And that is how I see myself as being a leech off of others words and actions so that I could stand as I saw them = being stable. What the person in the movie did was ruin the underground graffitti movement by making it mainstream and `selling out` because he made millions off of shit that he threw together. This is what I see myself potentially doing in that I hae obviously misled myself in using the desteni material within becoming SELF and not others....not conforming. So who am I within my participation in desteni...a leec. Using other peoples words and actions calling them my own.

No wonder I have lost myself...I have become everyone that has been in my environment. Within this I have not been living what is best for all but what is best for me as personality as ego, as what I want myself to believe that I am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to COPY others words and actions and use them as my own to establish a belief for myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to need validation from others for my own beliefs.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deceive myself in my participation in what is best for all by masking it in doing what is `best` for me as ego.
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to stand as myself participating as myself in what is best for em as life as all.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to copy others actions so that I can project myself as stable. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to copy other actions and words so that I can decieve others into believing what I want them to believe as what I want myself to believe that I am.
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to live as myself as life. I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to stand up for myself as life as all.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deceive myself in trying to be something that  I believe I want to be. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be an activist. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define being an activist as a benificial things - benevolent thing.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become that which I see and like. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to only do what I like. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in likes form a mind starting point. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become that which I like. To rephrase that...I hae become that which I see and like. If I see someone wearing skinny jeans and I like that I now leech off of them and buy a pair of skinny jeans so that I can become them. That is what has happened in my participation in desteni. The starting point is to become superior to become like not to many have been. To become like bernard. To become a portal, to become something that I see and like, from becoming a perspective from and as the mind/ego.
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to participate in desteni as myself as life for the purpose of solving this situation on Earth. I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to become life as myself. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become a projection of what I like.
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to live myself as life as all = equally.

Again I have been writing this down because I am no longer standing as the fear of myself in who I have become. I will no longer accept the fear of fucking up desteni by not living the principles of what is best for all and equality and oneness. I no longer accept the fear of who I am = allowing it to limit my expression.

Update on Life

I have been able to look at this world again within reality. I lost that ability a while ago when I started participating more with friends and relationships. So I started looking at this world on the whole and started writing about it. One thing that sticks out is I wrote, What the fuck have we done?

Seriously, what the fuck have we done. What have we created. We have created hell, we have created a terrible, horrendous, destructive, hating, lieing, deceptive, controlling, selfless world. I could not believe that we have created this so fucking blindly. We are still completely unaware of the extent of the abuse and suppression of life on this world. Every time you take a breath, a child is starving. Everytime you take a breath death happens, and I combated myself with but everytime life is born. HA! And that is believed to be a good thing. Life being put into this earth is not a good thing currently. As soon as life is put into this Earth within 10 years it is dead. It is dead from the sense that everything that life is stands for and as is no longer existent within the being. It is dead through the programming comming from the media, it is dead from the hell, from the lifelessness that is already here. And the child becomes what is here. How can one live in an evironment that one has not adapted to? We all must adapt and to adapt we become monsters! We thrive off of abuse. To clothe ourselves we use slave labour in countries that are seen as less than others. To get almost everything in the western world, the eastern world is enslaved, by money, to make. This world is hell for most so that only a few can `enjoy` it. And the lie is that we are all looking for happiness when there is NONE in this reality. Truly what is good in this reality that is infinite? Love does not last. Love isn't even good if you look at it. One gives the entire self up to retain that one feeling tat will ultimately fuck with you becasue we are looking for the ultimate fuck. Animals can't even live well. When I say well I mean without worry that humans will come and kill them for money. Money is truly to root to all evil, but what creates money what give vlaue to money. Us as minds give value to money, so really us as minds are the root to all evil in this world. Trees and plants can't even exist without abuse. We have damaged every living thing on this Earth with our self-interest manifested within and as the search and greed of money. Nothing is free from the affects of money! so we must Change the application of money, in order to stop the search need and greed of money, we must give it away equally to all to support their life. Keep the application of money, change the value and means of getting it to support people to not have a fear of survival!      http://www.equalmoney.org/

For The Masses

So We have been Constantly forgetting that we are lives mostly due to the fact that we are thinknig about munny constantly. WE focus on our jobs or houses or so to speak Lives>! WE are submitting to money even though we don't like having to participate in it, The only ones who enjoy money are the rich. YEs it is luxiourious and comfortable to have what we have but at what expense.? Yourselves, What did you think of then? Your body or what you define as life? What Im saying is jsut stop right now, Leave let be/Stop and Drop Everything and no more money trouble, so no more property ownershit, and all other possessional status that you have with anything else. When there is no electricity items that we put some worth to become valueless, when theres no more care of whom it belongs to. Live freely from anything that we have dfined as stresses or worries or cares, still care for the people around you and live free from judgment from people around you for minor insecurities about themselves, Why people are racial has nothing to do with the fact that the others are different than them It has to do with the fact that they are insecure with something within himself. So Yes I Understand that with all these masses of people some must die Un fortuneatly yes. But Why We Fear death is only Because We don't Understand Death. And To Understand Death Isnt't that hard just an opened mind and clear perception of what you see. If your free from any preconceived Belief of how things are and came to be then take a look at desteniproductions on youtube and just watch and listen to see if you find truth in what exists in the words spoken. And Then you can understand Death. Hopefully with knowledge of death you no longer fear it, But just to exist as it because death does not exist seperately from you! Its inevitable that we die so why worry about it, yes it may hurt or be unpleasent in some way but fuck its not like if you avoid that pain now to never feel what ever death is going to feel like. So Again Stop Dead Right NOW! And Spread the message of True freedom! No More possessions and Use common Sense to Judge how you best would live within the enviroment that we currently have but only if All that we currently have here is unoperated. I would say Start Grabbing fruit from the Grocerey stop but not franticly and planting them wherever they can be, and dont worry about "oh maybe ill die before this try grows to riping" but know that you in time created better survival for what ever is left and what ever there will be when you die. sO Will you?