Christianity Teaches Abdication of Self-Responsibility

A few days ago I was searching for my birth certificate with my mom. We stumbled on a writing that I did when I was in kindergarten or grades 1 or 2. The writing consisted of a writing to `God` which the school had the class do. In the writing I said things along the lines of “I love my parents and I hope that they live long”, and within that one point I saw that early on there was a fear of having to take care of myself. The one part of the writing though that really caught me was “I hope that you will take my mom into heaven as she is public”. To explain a bit, while in school I knew of two schools, catholic and public, so within that I had created a separation within defining a person by which school they go to, so I only knew my mom in terms of public at that moment.

This point shows me that while growing up in a catholic school I was taught to see people as religious or not. I was seeing people as religious or not and through that I was separating people in that point. I was not seeing equality I was being shown to look at people in terms of their religious standards.

When reading the part on how I saw my mom differently than me I reacted. I reacted because I saw that even then I was in separation from other people. I did not see them as another being on Earth, I connected definitions to them and held the definitions to them and I defined people as more or less that eachother through their religious group. I saw myself as more than my mother at that time because through the teaching of the catholic system, since I was believing in `god` I was immediately accepted into heaven and those that did not believe were not accepted into heaven, and through the teaching `heaven` is the ultimate joy of `life and death` and I was assuming that since my mother was not a Christian that she was not going to heaven simply because of that reason.

This is the `normal` teaching of Catholicism where believers will go to heaven and those that do not believe will not go to heaven, which is complete absurdity. This teaches separation and within this it teaches judgment, it teaches that it is fine to say whether or not a person is going to heaven on the fact of whether or not they believe, and many will keep their religious status just because they themselves want to go to heaven, thus not thoroughly investigating themselves in what they accept and allow within themselves and thus what they are accepting and allowing within reality. Thus religion is a point of abdication of self-responsibility  through placing the belief that simply because `I` `We` believe, we are going to heaven and thus ot caring what happens because in the `end we are going to heaven` = `it doesn’t matter what I do, god will forgive me because I believed in him` thus allowing the shit that is here on Earth to continue while in fact we are all equally responsible for what is here on Earth through/as being a participant here on Earth as One individual.

Heaven is a Fairy Tale

May 19^th 2011
The fascination with heaven is abundant in most if not all cultures within this world. The teachings within religion consist of describing heaven as a blissful existence and state of being...that if you can achieve going into heaven the rest of your existence will be bliss. The human condition is one that is addicted to positivity. We are all searching for that positivity in lives...you know the pursuit of happiness. Since heaven is within the mind as an idea one is able to focus on that entirely, and escape reality through focusing on that blissful state within their mind and try all that they believe they can do get to that idea within their mind. Even within the physical here everyone is searching for this idea of positivity within relationships, material objects, money, attaining enlightenment, etc. So the fascination occurs because it plays on the humans wants for this intense everlasting positivity and high energy. Humans fantasize because it is thus then the best thing that they could imagine because it is described as being the best and one must be the best to enter heaven...the Christianity form at least.

I remember reading a book about the crusades and that Middle Eastern Assassins. There was a story being told of a crusader going to meet up with a king from the assassins. The king showed the crusader just how much influence he had on his people and with a wave of his hand a man jumped from a watch tower to his death. There was one reason for this and that was because he thought bliss was on the other side of life. What happened previously is that the drugged up teenagers and when they became quite intoxicated and passed out, they brought them into a `garden of eden` which was a place in the castle where there was plenty of fruit and vegetables growing. They also had sex slaves there as well as well with hashish, so these teenagers would have the time of their lives and once again be drugged. When they woke up again they were out of that Eden and the kings had told them that they had experienced what was on the other side of life if you obey me etc, because the king was doing a `good` thing and one mut obey to the laws of `good` to go back to that eden. So of course there would be fascination about this heaven thing as it is described as the best thing one can imagine and then thus that desire for that everlasting positive feeling and experience exists within each human thus they fascinate and follow blindly.

No wonder Stephen Hawking said that Heaven is a fairy tale for those that are afraid of the dark. Reality here is dark, there is suffering everywhere, but many will not look...needless suffering. So heaven provides that state of mind where one can escape to and ignore the reality which is dark/negative and heaven being light/positive. Even in religion following the idea of heaven revolves around fear. Fear god and obey him and you may get into heaven, thus fear what is here = the negativity = ignore what is here = a blind fairy tale positive bullshit story that allows one to not look at what is here and come up with a solution to the suffering abuse, murder, rape, annihilation of the Earth, which will still exist when we are all dead...if we don’t do something about it Now. This IS no different that Santa Claus where god is Santa. A man who works in the north pole/sky that gives presents/salvation to the `good` in the world and hands coal/condemnation to those who are `bad`. Most people have believed this story in their lives only to realize it was a lie told by our parents to believe in something magical/miraculous. God is the same idea only we have not stopped believing it and looked at reality where lies are being told to get us to act by our parents/governments whim as being a good citizen/child and do not ask questions or question the authority.

Is heaven a possibility on Earth? It is a possibility but not within the current system. This system is all about winning and losing and ask yourself is that heaven when there are losers? This system is about haves and have nots, it is about luxury and poverty. Heaven in my opinion would be one where people will look out for what is best for all on this planet, where people do not kill eachother over resources or religions or ethnicities, where we do not end up raping this Earth from its resources. It gives to us unconditionally but we abuse. Heaven is within a change that humans must undergo to remove this `nature` of abuse, of rape, of murder, or hell basically. Heaven on Earth would be within an Equal Money System where the resource of money is provided to all equally, this causes no one to have to put themselves in compromising positions such as prostitution or child labour or making Iphones and Ipods for Apple working 12 hours a day or Jeans for Walmart making 35cents a day and having to support themselves as life within the means of that 35cents. Heaven would be where everyone on this Earth lives a dignified life. Heaven is only possible if the humans changes and is willing to change into doing what is best for all and live that principle instead of the self-interest being lived now. Heaven is possible through creating a new system and the system that is being supported as an actual solution in an Equal Money System as it takes on all of the points that exist here within this current system.

So if you truly want to exist within heaven = support the Equal Money System ( http://equalmoney.org ) Donate what you can because yes everything within this current system takes money for it to evolve and be produced, it is common sense then that this will take money to be implemented.

Investigate an EMS as the solution to the entire world problems as well investigate how this system operates and how an EMS will operate.

Whole Hearted Motherfuckers

Feb 28th 5:41am 2011


I just looked at the word environment and saw the word Iron within it. I related this to knowledge of the Earth’s core being 95% Iron. So I related this to me being 95% affected by the environment. Bullshit connection but it is applicable. We are completely Affected by the environment we grow up in. This environment is disgusting. As a child we are force fed happiness and love and light and positivity with media. Tv shows are always happy and related to happy experiences and Male tv shows – from my experience – of playing the part of the hero eg: power rangers. I then grew up believing in light love and happiness and positivity, always searching for that positivity. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to search the world/environment for positivity. I was searching for positivity in a world where nothing is positive whatsoever. In reality everything is `negative`. A relationship is not blissful, it is ignorance. Ignoring the fact that it will not and cannot last in reality. It will inevitably break, and if one exists in positivity within participating in a relationship one is absolutely delusional and ignorant of the fact of reality. Sure some marriages stay, but again it is through negativity, it is out of fear of financial Stability, It is a manipulative point of getting what one wants, a fear of `being alone for the rest of your life`, and we all do this knowingly, yet we purposefully blind ourselves with ignorance and the idea of bliss, when in reality we are all fucking disgusting and self-interested and a relationship is only manipulative of self and/or the other person to get what we desire which is sex. I have done this myself where I have purposely manipulated myself within allowing myself to create a relative point within me so that I could relate to the other to then establish a relationship and then get what I desired which is sex…quite disgusting and ugly. There is a replay of a memory of a co-worker telling me that another co-worker has defined my writings as `dark`. Fuck…it is the true nature of us, investigate yourself in honesty and you will see some ugly disgusting shit as yourself….we all exist as this, and that is why the world is in the situation it is in right now. Investigate yourself in honesty and stop fearing yourself, it will only cause a large event to happen to yourself wherein you will have to face yourself in honesty of what you have really become, and if you are still believing yourself to be positive, and happy, and a `good person` in that moment you will throw up at realizing yourself.

So we are influenced heavily by our environment and that is why we become what we have become, as our environment is disgusting and we are hiding from what we really are through entertainment and distraction. We rarely see the actually rapacious nature of ourselves in reality, and therefore we hide from it and exist in ignorance of ourselves, thus believing ourselves to be positive and beings of `whole heartedness, love, light, happiness`. It is al bullshit when in reality we have destroyed ourselves and the environment and abused life and ourselves with self-interest in trying to hold onto that belief that we are happy and good whole hearted motherfuckers.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that the human is a benefit to life

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ignore the true nature of myself as human

I stand here in honesty in realizing myself as the true nature of myself as evil, as hellish, as destructive, as rapacious to understand myself so that I may never allow it to again exist as me as reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make myself blissful so that I may ignore and hide from the true nature of/as myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am a good person

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide from the true nature of what I have become

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to avoid at all `costs` facing myself in reality

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to spend money to keep myself dumb and happy and ignorant to the fact that I am an `ugly` being

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to cost myself my life in ignorance

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to be one and equal to all life allowing myself to see the true nature of myself as a human in what I have accepted and allowed within this world that is destructive, abusive, rapacious, harming, murdering all life forms on/as this Earth

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blind myself from the true nature of myself as being rapacious, destructive, harmful to all life on this earth, through believing myself to be good, and creating the pursuit of happiness.

Update on Life

I have been able to look at this world again within reality. I lost that ability a while ago when I started participating more with friends and relationships. So I started looking at this world on the whole and started writing about it. One thing that sticks out is I wrote, What the fuck have we done?

Seriously, what the fuck have we done. What have we created. We have created hell, we have created a terrible, horrendous, destructive, hating, lieing, deceptive, controlling, selfless world. I could not believe that we have created this so fucking blindly. We are still completely unaware of the extent of the abuse and suppression of life on this world. Every time you take a breath, a child is starving. Everytime you take a breath death happens, and I combated myself with but everytime life is born. HA! And that is believed to be a good thing. Life being put into this earth is not a good thing currently. As soon as life is put into this Earth within 10 years it is dead. It is dead from the sense that everything that life is stands for and as is no longer existent within the being. It is dead through the programming comming from the media, it is dead from the hell, from the lifelessness that is already here. And the child becomes what is here. How can one live in an evironment that one has not adapted to? We all must adapt and to adapt we become monsters! We thrive off of abuse. To clothe ourselves we use slave labour in countries that are seen as less than others. To get almost everything in the western world, the eastern world is enslaved, by money, to make. This world is hell for most so that only a few can `enjoy` it. And the lie is that we are all looking for happiness when there is NONE in this reality. Truly what is good in this reality that is infinite? Love does not last. Love isn't even good if you look at it. One gives the entire self up to retain that one feeling tat will ultimately fuck with you becasue we are looking for the ultimate fuck. Animals can't even live well. When I say well I mean without worry that humans will come and kill them for money. Money is truly to root to all evil, but what creates money what give vlaue to money. Us as minds give value to money, so really us as minds are the root to all evil in this world. Trees and plants can't even exist without abuse. We have damaged every living thing on this Earth with our self-interest manifested within and as the search and greed of money. Nothing is free from the affects of money! so we must Change the application of money, in order to stop the search need and greed of money, we must give it away equally to all to support their life. Keep the application of money, change the value and means of getting it to support people to not have a fear of survival!      http://www.equalmoney.org/