Supressing Self

Through watching the documentary (the second part now) "The Century of Self" I have learnt that through suppressing our `natural` emotions, the emotions that are too outrageous for us to face, we become very confused beings, we become uncertain of who we are and of who we should become and what we should do with ourselves. This can lead to suicide, this can lead to hysteria, dementia, schizophrenia, and many other mental illnesses. The reason why these occur is because how we as humans have accepted and allowed society to develop, and how we have conditioned ourselves to conform to a certain accepted lifestyle. This conformity is the goal of society in order to keep society running/flowing in the way that it has been, and through conforming we become a guided programmed being with the goals and objectives in that which society has already `in store` for us. All of our life is directed once we conform to `how we should live`, and in that we become automated following the direction that which society would like for us, and in that not directing ourselves but having these desires and unconscious thoughts direct us.

Within conforming to society we are suppressing who we are as humans, through attempting to live like `civilized` beings, not taking a look at who we are as `nature` and deciding to change that as who we are as our nature. Our nature is disgusting = look at how we have been treating the Earth and ourselves, look at how we have in fact been existing. It is not special, we are not significant, we are actually quite fucking oblivious to how we are actually existing, we are not a benevolent creature, we are a destructive one. So what is interesting about the point of the ability to suppress ourselves is that if we are able to suppress ourselves we are able to change ourselves, we are able to stop living as our accepted nature, but in order to change ourselves we must face ourselves. We must face the ugliness as who we are and in that face who we are as thoughts, as that which we have become, forgive the acceptance of how we have lived, remove the symbols that which stimulate how we have been living and set a goal of equality in that we see eachother as equals, as another being walking this planet equal and one to me, as another source of substance equal and one to me as substance equally, and in that realize that what we do to another we in fact do to ourselves, and live a new self living in a way that is best for all and best for self.

Investigate Desteni and Investigate an Equal Money System, see how we must change in order to live as new beings, and to stop our destructive self.

Inception

I watched the movie Inception and I found it to be completely interesting. I enjoyed it. So the movie is based on this group of people that attach themselves into peoples dreams so that they can access their subconscious to gain secrets...Information. What happens is that a energy company is at war with another company and want to gain absolute power and not let the other have absolute power, so they hire this group of people to place an idea into the rival energy companies heir's head that he wants to destroy the company. This is what they call inception, placing an idea into ones head.

What is interesting about this movie is that they explore the mind entirely, the conscious, subconscious, unconscious, and a level they call limbo. When placed inside a dream they can access the beings subconscious in the entire world around them, through talking to the people because they are all projections.

They go around finding people in real life to act as their `professions` within a dream state, so for example they try and find an architect to place themself within the dream to create the dream world. They find a fraud, someone who replicates casino chips to make money, to recreate and act as someone who the dreamer knows. The fraud would look like and talk like the person that the dreamer knows, so that they could manipulate the dreamer into more information. This entire movie revolves around deception. They all try and deceive the dreamer to gain information.

After this movie I had more of an understanding of the mind which was interesting! I was watching Maya's video response to voice tonality and I could see and understand the entire consequence and reality of a reaction, on how it is not real and how it is a complete possession. A Reaction is when one goes into the mind and becomes completely controlled by it through not wanting to face or realize a point through fear of losing itself. And this mind takes us over completely, so I saw what it means to be possessed by the mind and how we allow it and how fucked up it truly is. Like A reaction to words said to you, like you are fat, if you go into a reaction it is the fear of being fat and the belief that you are fat coming into play. This is absolute possession and control. We are allowing this to take over our LIVES. So I looked at a definition I held of a past girlfriend because I noticed that I would still think about her every so often. So I looked at that picture of her in everything that it was, I forgave...Truly forgave, myself on believing that to be her, and then realized that if I saw her in the physical that the picture presentation I had of her would be irrelevant to what she actually is within the physical, So I was able to let that go unconditionally and absolutely.

Forgiveness for me is much more effective if I forgive within and as myself without words. I have to look at myself in what I have accepted and allowed myself to believe within and as my mind, look at it and then forgive. When looking at it within the mind I can see the entirety of the belief or perception or idea of something and unconditionally let it go with forgiveness. I must forgive myself first when looking at it and then I can speak it and mean it knowing that I do forgive myself rather than speaking empty words that I cannot stand behind because I have not lived them within the moment or know what they really mean.

So this is what helped completely. In the movie the main character is holding onto a belief of who his wife is, and the belief is surrounded by guilt and from that guilt comes regret and not being able to let it go, which is completely relevant to what desteni has brought forth within information. So he was holding onto a belief of his wife even though she died. She would still be within his mind fucking with the dream state of anothers dream, because all of their subconscious would come through and she was a large part of the main character that he could not let go. I looked at this point of that, even though it is jsut a belief it has immense consequences within the person because it becomes them. So I looked at any belief I had and looked at it entirely and forgave myself for believing it and within that moment I could see the reality of that which I believed to be. So If I were to believe a Person to be special or happy or sad or any `definition` I forgave it and could immediate see what they were in reality, no within any set definition. And I saw that they were me....deceptive lieing, polarity based, judgmental, mental (lol), etc.

I enjoyed this movie quite a lot because I was actually able to take away a better understanding of beliefs, I suggest you watch it and if you do not understand the movie start to research psychology, only a little through, then watch it again and see if you can understand it again. And Check Self-forgiveness as well because what I found interesting as well is that it was suggested within the movie to the main character to release his guilt.