Not being Here.

Here I am in breath. While I am not here I am thinking about some situation or possibility or what if or outcome or what to eat all in contexts of what is not here at the moment meaning It is not in my direct reality and I cannot physically participate with it.

I had an experience of not being here at work today and it is a vivid one, meaning I experience myself not here quite frequently with participating in thoughts of what ifs and speculation etc etc, yet this one was a bit more `interesting`.

I was working and at my job it is VERY systematic as is most jobs in this world, so once we get used to it we can basically go through our jobs blindfolded and deaf. I was low as well, meaning blood sugar low and when this happens I have noticed I participate much more in thoughts or negativity, and I cannot establish myself as effectively in the physical.

I pick cases at a warehouse on put them on skids, so I was moving from my machine to the slot and putting it on the skid and this entire movement I had no awareness of. Meaning I was not able to place it as myself I was not in the physical doing this action it was systematic it was automatic. I got back to my machine and was about to pick up another case and I saw that I had no memory of moving from the machine and picking up that last case and putting on the skid. I was not here in the physical at all I was not here I was completely not here I didn’t even remember the sights that I saw while doing that action which I am usually able to do, my senses were shut off to me, If someone asked me exactly what happened in that moment I could not tell them truth I could only relate to past experiences.  

Looking at this it is very dangerous to participate in reality like this yet we all do as we are all constantly thinking about what ifs, or speculating, or thinking about what they will do in the future = programming ourselves, or thinking about memories etc etc, Most of the time we are not here in the physical. Most of the time we humans are not aware of the physical, aware of our physical actions, aware of our physical breath, aware of our hearing or sight or anything that is PHYSICAL.

This is how FUCKED the mind is. It is not a benevolent placement of the human, it is devious as hell and separate from the physical though/as thinking thus we are not able to be here with the physical with our true selves, and since we are separate from our true selves, we believe that the mind is us, that thoughts are us, when in reality we are HERE in the physical in breath, in/as our senses. For an experiment go through your day and see how many things you have not heard the entire time = electrical noises, or birds, or cars, mostly ambient noises, and then realize that they were always making that sound, YOU were just not HEREing, so where were you? Then look at the thoughts and if they have any relevancy to Reality = what is here = what we can physically participate with in the moment HERE.

This is what desteni has shown me and many others, but in essence they showed me the opportunity and the fact that I had the ability to see, in essence I saw, desteni showed me the tools on how to allow myself to see. Desteni showed us that we are not here and to take our power back = our RESPONSEability = we must be here to respond correctly, or else we are only responding within/as a system = a pre-programmed automatic response. Our responsibility is our ability to respond through being here  and through taking our ability to respond back to us through being HERE we are taking our power back as ourselves = we are taking our power back from the systems that WE have ACCEPTED giving it up to.

This is what being a destonian is about. It is about taking our responseability of/as ourselves and responding with what is best for all so that we may bring about what is best for all. Being able to see what is best for all is a simple accumulation process of 1+1+1, looking at the consequence of each action that we participate in and what will be the side effects as well.

So no more speculation about what/how desteni is operating, it is out in the open it is for all to see, yet the irony is that you must allow yourself to see reality which through/as the mind you cannot as the mind is not in reality, it is in a sphere or a delusion self created reality, where as REALality is not SELF created it is created by ALL as self, it is a accumulation of all of us to make ONE reality. Stand up to see your true self, forgive yourself for all that we are holding onto as a collective community (the world) let it all go so that we may see what is here, let ourselves unconditionally go from the mind as we are the only ones who are enslaving ourselves.  Join Desteni, share and start investigating yourself at http://desteni.co.za – it is time to stop the mind so that we can get ourselves back to reality where we BREATHE, not think.

Pop Your Bubble with Breath

With thoughts running around I have one has a closed mind. With breath the mind is open, with breath one is able to consider all as one is able to hear. I have started to have this problem with watching videos, I could not seem to get it on track, I could not seem to figure out what was going on. I have started to not be able to hear videos, I could not hear words, and that was because I have been caught up in my mind with thoughts not breathing not placing myself within breath and hearing the words. Within breath I am `opening up my mind`, my mind is open within breath, through breathing. I am stopping myself from closing my mind which is thoughts, which is the entire act of thinking within breathing. Within breathing I am able to hear the words,
listen to the words and place them as me and to an extent live them, live them through creating a reference within myself to which I can relate.

When thinking during watching a video I close myself off. I cannot hear to words, I cannot put them into context, and I cannot apply them to myself. So thoughts actually close ones mind off from reality, where as breathing brings you back to reality. Being stable within breath will allow one to effectively direct oneself within reality as within breath one is able to place oneself within reality…take in reality and move through it as themselves. Whereas thinking one closes oneself off from reality. I have experienced many times when walking or travelling myself thinking heavily and in a moment I will breathe and say  “holy shit how did I get here” or simply realize I am here, but there would be no recognition of the path I travelled only of the thoughts that I participated in, and even then I cannot remember many of the thoughts as I was not here within reality, I was not coherent, I was simply allowing a system to run me and that system is the Mind Consciousness system in which thoughts derive from with the assistance of me participating it, giving it value and worth.

So breathing helps place one in reality, breathing allows one to take in reality and move through it. Thinking closes oneself off from the world…it is like filtering bubbles, where it takes into context all of your past searches on a search engine, and makes your searches relevant to the past information that you have typed in or looked at = it blocks one off from reality, and what one types into search engines is within the mind, it is ones interests, it is self-interests and that’s what thoughts are as well and therefore they block on off from reality as well.

Stopping thoughts allows one to take in reality, thinking creates a bubble of self-interest.