My Experience being a Diabetic with the Ketogenic Diet

 Prior to being diagnosed with diabetes I was 80lbs, I was quite thin, I had a `good` looking body in that aspect. Then from being diagnosed with type 1 I started to inject insulin when I rapidly gained 40lbs in about a 4 month span. Why did this happen? Because the lack of insulin that my body was producing was not allowing the body to gather the carbohydrates that I was taking in and transfer them into the cells so that they can use up the energy within the glucose. What happens here is that sinec the body is not getting sugar in the form of glucose by body started to eat the fat away from me causing me to be quite thin, and from the perspective of `looks` there was nothing wrong with me, but what was in fact happening was that my liver was breaking down my fats in my body to allow an energy production to happen. This was causing ketones to flow through my blood in excess which cause keto acidosis which makes the blood toxic to all the organs that it flows to, which is the entire body.

I was incredibly thirsty in this time, I would drink a litre of juice (not knowing I had diabetes, I thought that was fine) within a half hour then piss it out immediately because my body was attempting to get rid of the ketones within the blood stream. It is a problem when the body needs more water than normal because that entail that it is trying to get rid of something in the body through flushing it out. Drinking more water is not the solution to working with ketones, because the build up of ketones is the issue, not the fact that the body needs to flush it out. And the build up of ketones is from the burning of fats, because the body’s primary source for energy is glucose…there is a reason for the pancreas to exist, if we only needed to burn fats then why would we need the pancreas to allow glucose to enter the cells, and why not just use fats predominantly?, so when it has to resort to is secondary source for creating energy there are consequences involved with doing so, that being the creation of ketones causing the blood to become toxic and the body to require more fluids to assist in removing the toxicity. Understand that keto acidosis is an excess build up of ketones in the blood stream, the body does burn fats as well, but burning too much fats is extremely detrimental to the physical body through the toxicity that is produced.

Yesterday I worked with the ketogenic diet to find out if it will be assisting for me as a diabetic. Diabetic keto acidosis is when there is too much glucose in the blood stream through lack of insulin causing the body to burn fats, and then creating ketones. This happens predominantly when the blood sugar is high, so I made sure that I did my morning and evening injection so that I had my base rate of insulin to counteract the natural elevation in the blood sugar throughout the day, without the injection of carbs. I made sure that I covered this point because being too high would be detrimental to my health. I ate fruit periodically throughout the day when I would go low to keep my blood sugar to where it needs to be. Throughout the day I was exactly where I needed to be, there was not a reading that I was above 8, but that does not mean that it was `good`. With the injection in the morning and the physical activity that I did throughout the day and eating small amounts of carbs, I went low periodically. Before I went to sleep I checked my blood sugar and it was at 4.0 so I ate a banana because 4.0 is on the verge of being low. When I would normally eat carbs throughout the day eating a piece of fruit like this should have at least put me up to 6.0. I woke up to being 2.7 which means that my body used up all the sugars in the banana plus some to get what it needed.

It is best to not demonize one thing and glorify another, there is a reason for the organs in the body and they all have their uses, so if an organ is removed from the equation through diet it is going to have consequences on the body which may show up later down the road or with immediacy. Best to investigate the best balance between each category of food before one says that it is this way or that way, not using information but testing it through self.

Judging Myself

I have been looking at judging myself today as I have noticed that I judge others the way that I judge myself…and I have not noticed this through judging them before. So there are a few things that I judge myself on…Skill, Appearance, Ethnicity, Diligence/commitment, Letting myself Down, Sophistication/Intelligence. These are all things that I have valued, and placed within myself as valuable, and I judge myself to try and create value. So I have valued a positive point, and do not value the negative, so I value being skinny, or fit, or strong, and I do not value fat, out of shape, or weak. So I have feared being weak, I have feared being fat, I have feared being out of shape. So I have created This value on perception and appearance from/by the media. Believing that Being skinny is better than being fat in the sense that you will be more accepted within society…and that is true…they do not make things for fat people, seats on trains, seats on plains, seats in general. Well I am thinking about the extreme example where someone won’t be able to fit into a seat because of their weight. Seats are made for average people. Seats are made for the average man and women, the extreme example are not taken into consideration…it is not equally valued within this world and that is what I fear being…not valued or considered in this world. So I become the system when trying to be skinny and judge others for being fat…not valuing them equally. They are the exact same…I have become the system this world is in this regard. As I have become the average male to try and fit into society…Literally, and by fitting in I have become the system and the system does not value all life equally, does not take into consideration all life equally, and therefore I have not valued all life equally and then judge fatness as myself through fear of not fitting in.

This is all an idea of what is valuable. We are placed into a world where average is accepted. Everywhere. So Me desiring to be accepted by everyone means that I would desire to be average…based on a value system. And it is all within judgment, so I judge fatness I judge skinnyness so I have programmed myself to be average…meaning that I will strive to be average, because I do not allow myself to be fat through fear, and I do not allow myself to be skinny through fear…another example is muscle, and again this is all media implantation. I desire to have muscle, to be defined by muscle, but again not too much because I judge too much muscle as a bad thing…an ugly thing and I do not accept that.

When I judge I look at a `defect` that I see within myself, and place it on another person. I am having trouble writing, I understand the point but am having trouble communicating it. There is a block, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge other people for my own insecurities, I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to take responsibility for my own insecurities, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project my own insecurities onto other people.

That s exactly what I do, project my own insecurities onto other people. I try and make myself feel superior where I feel inferior through calling my inferiority within them less than the inferiority within me. This never works as I always will still feel shitty, and inferior to the person that I am judging.

K for example I judged this lady for having a protruding nose, and I have often judged myself for the exact same reason. Having a protruding nose, During a class in high school, A classmate nick named me birdface, so I was called birdface, and started to feel very insecure about this point and from what I remember I was not insecure about this point before. The point is that I will pick out the inferiorities I see within me within them. I will place my own inferiorities onto them. And judge them for it.

So everything that I judge myself for I have placed some type of value on, like clothing, muscle, and idea of value from getting attention or being desired, that if I look a certain way and act a certain way and be perceived a certain way that I will be desired and wanted and within that be accepted in society and my fear of being accepted will not be at the forefront of my mind…but most likely it would. I have placed value on that and it has been supported by the belief and value that the more friends one has the more valuable the person is…popularity. It is a game of popularity…inferiority is. I was reading a magazine that said “they’re just like us” referring to famous people, in order to say that one must believe that they are not like us, one is justifying ones own belief that they are more than us, different, more valuable. Thus one is believing that Famous people are superior to us, that we are all inferior to celebrities, and it is all based on money, that we feel inferior because we do not have as much money, and that we believe that we will never accumulate that amount of money so, we become jealous and need to judge them because we feel so damn inferior. A cool point and an obvious point I was looking at when I was cleaning the washrooms at work. One sees pee as disgusting, from my experience because it belongs to a person, and that person we are defining by a personality, believing I don’t want that person’s piss on me EW…really saying ew to that person. But looking at it in common sense, pee goes through the exact same process in anyones body, it is exactly the same and the personality cannot be attached to it, There it ABSOLUTELY NO difference from one persons pee to anothers. That is equality. So when we find pee or poo disgusting when we do not find our own, we create a belief of who that could have come from and create a value based on our imagination of who that substance came from and then define it as gross….I am sure that a celebrities piss could be sold on Ebay. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an imagining of the owner of someones piss and define them as less than me believing that piss to be `gross`, through believing the imagining of the person to be gross. So we all define ourselves as gross then! We can only imagine ourselves, We can only create ourselves, so when we create that person who owns the piss we create an imagination of ourselves being gross. Thus we have defined and separated ourselves from piss as `gross`. There are many points within this that I have not taken on before so I am going to do what I did for desires and pull them out one by one and write and vlog about them, like appearance….appearance is a large on and has very many subcategories, I mean I really cannot see anything else that I judge a person on…So it is all about appearance, with many sub-categories…grammar, clothing, money, intelligence, sophistication, skill, tastes in movies, music, physical shape Ethnicity, Culture, if any more come up I will add and take on all of these, somein the same article some may take up an entire article…not sure yet