War Heros Do not Exist

Mar 25th 2011 1:22pm


Ok so this Lybia situation has been reported on quite extensively. I was watching a segment on a `hero` who made an explosive out of his car and drove it into a military stronghold and blew a hole in the gate and allowed rebels to go into the stronghold and take it over. They were regarding this man as a hero because without that action they would not be able to take that stronghold and thus not be able to take the city of Benghazi as a stronghold for rebels. I mean all of this fighting truly gets no where, and this has excelled quite extensively, from shooting at protestors to an all out war right now. So I mean this action did not solve anything, it has only made things worse. And it IS all about money, the pro-ghadaffi fighters are fighting because of money, because they have money, and Ghadaffi is giving them money so ofcourse they are going to fight for him. And on the opposite end, the rebels are getting no money and thus are fighting against ghadaffi. So I mean there is no solution to this situation within fighting. This `hero` did not solve anything, If the rebels take over all of lybia I mean where is the solution, yes less death but still suffering. There will simply still be a reliance on money to provide for them. So there are no heros in this situation, there is only more and more death and violence. The people for and against ghadaffi are still affected by money, They are still affected by the money system. So nothing is solved. A hero in my eyes solves everything, One that has a solution. But this situation is still not solved, and is only growing worse by the day, moer violence, more death, more suffering….simply there is no solution to this other than stopping it immediately and forgiving each side for the murderous acts done. And then thus restart with what best for all taken into consideration. There are no `war heros`. LOL War is not a heroic condition.

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Please...Get the fuck out of my way

So the title kind of explains what I am going to write about.
Today that has been my expereince, joining it a tingling in my knees and a not being able to stay still when that feeling occurs. It has been relating to my environment and not being able to stand it. Not being able to stand within it. The knee point in Veno's structural resonance document is the thoughts, personality, knowledge - memory based mind aspects. I have been taking on this point recently in stopping myself from escaping commuting....I have been writing my day out for about a week and noticed a pattern of escape. I have taken on this point and it has been mostly occuring when I am commuting, trying to escape the time/space construct. This is a memory based point as I will always project and fantasize about memories and ideas.

As well I did not allow myself to smoke today. I am taking on the wants = happiness, and the not getting what I want = unhappiness point within myself. I wanted and desires and was tempted to have a cigarette but I did not give in, and was feeling very unwilling to do anything today, I did not want to move, write, watch videos, movies, tv, I just wanted to sit and think, I didn't even want to think, I wanted everything to go and allow myself to escape. I could not stand being here for too long in the environment that I am in. I could not stand the cold for long, I got cold and rushed to get inside when I would walk the dog (molly). Like I could not take it when I got inside, I rushed to get all of my outerwear off and shoes off so that I would not be touching anything cold, sit down and place myself in a comfortable position and sit under a blanket and watch videos, or read articles etc.

There was a point where I made food and went to sit down by the computer and had no place to put my food. I got anxious at `needing` to put my food down and the fact that I could not position everything right the way it was, and position myself within that to set up a comfortable position where I could eat and use the computer made that feeling within myknees come up and I could not stand my environment not `suiting` me, suiting me meaning fitting me in. So I had to stop breathe and move the environment differently. I was about to sweep everything off of the table and just sit, and be done with it. It comes from accumulating not cleaning up after myself. I leave it until I literally cannot put anything more down or whenever I think it is too crowded with shit, then I rearrange or clean up. This time I did not clean up in time and had too much shit scattered, all it took was some rearranging and I was able to set my food down, but again I could not stand the fact that I was not allowing myself to place myself effectively within my environment.

I am forgetting things much more. Usually I have everything I need on me = Wallet, Keys, Cellphone. Recently I have forgotten my keys a few times, when I have needed them. As well as my cell phone. I am relating this to not effecitvely placing my environment around me allowingmyself to have on my what I need.

I do not know exactly where this is stemming from but tomorrow will be another day without a cigarette, and I can check if it comes from that. I am going to start cleaning up after I eat, or use something, and see where that takes me, as there is shit on the table right now, and it is limiting my mobility....That is it. My mobility being limited. The cold I allow it to limit my mobility...not wanting to be cold so I do not move to the point where my skin touches a new part of the jacket, I keep it in one place thus keeping that same place warm and keeping my warmish. So I limit myself within my mobility,through the cold. and the shit on the table is limiting my mobility, Mobile phone so that I am able to connect with people wherever I go and the keys are what allow my to move around more effectively. So again the title of the post was get out of my way, so that I am able to move....Claustrophoic. Cool.